Where wild minds come to rest
Here's a question: Maybe its not actually DDing that is holding us back? Maybe thats just what we tell ourselves and we believe it. For me, it still takes over my life and i have absolutley no handle on it. But latley ive been putting myself out of my comfort zone and good things are happening. I think ive been using DDing as an excuse to not make an effort with life. I realize now that i cant wait for life to happen. Because it wont. It wants you to make the first move, and then gives you…Continue
Hey guys, just here with my daily update, I put in that sweat equity for 15 hrs!!!, not easy though, isolation with no distractions while being deprived of DDing at times, not fun, but I promise to all of you MDers, who are trying to stop temporarily until they can control it, It may really suck throughout the day just having too go through the pain of being conscious and focused the whole day, but when all is said and at the end of the day, when you look back on the day it feels good to…Continue
Well, I didn't have time to even DD or at least "surface use" with music, cause I was working next to my study buddy all day at Uni for 14 hours! woot, but all I can say is even though I did have a strong urge at school to ask for my friends headphone and go into my world, I just went for a walk and grabbed some coffee, and came back and just got back into it, getting some fresh air can do the trick sometimes guys!, but only day 3, long way to go, but right now I feel good mainly cause of…Continue
I am totally get boring from this same situation and same scene always running on my mind.I honestly want to get out of this situatio na dmy friend recommended me to Doctor.Hope i will search a good sikertarist.I am totally fed up of this life.
As I figured, the first couple of days are well lets say are extrodinarily difficult to overcome, as in the 2nd day I almost gave into my trigger of music, but was able to keep composed( even took it drained hours of my time just resisting it), but Im glad to say I have made it too Day 2. I honestly felt like crap cause i felt like i need a fix of some DDing, but it will get easier to bear in time i hope. But other than that Im out for the day and hope to make it to day 3.
Hi guys I am starting a thread of blogs, to show you my progress as I overcome MDD, I have done extensive research to have the blueprint of success in overcoming this unproductive act( I know some people may be okay with DDing) but this is holding me back from reaching my full potential. To go along with MDD, I have had a really low self-esteem and acted out as the "nice guy" and let people take my kindness for granted and walk all over me( this includes my ex gf, my ex friends,…Continue
So, I've shared the story about how my MD came about. Now, I feel I can talk about more current events. I've been in an on and off relationship with a guy since my senior year in high school. It started out as a fling. It was strictly sex based. At some point he started to feel deeply for me and over the years he's expressed it more and more. Even after I moved out of California and ventured out into the military, he still called and checked on me. I appreciated having…Continue
I just discovered a Music Festival called Delfest that I really want to go to as I am a fan of some of the groups playing and just discovered a lot more awesome bluegrass and folk groups that I was just jamming and chilling too. Like I really want to go to this.
Did not take to long for me that I don't really have any friends, let alone friends that would even be interested in such a unpopular music scene.
For about the past two hours I was in a really deep…Continue
This is something ive been doing for a few years. My DD got so bad that i actually resulted to stealing headphones so i then could do what i call "surface using". I call it that because i DD all the time, but when listening to music thats when my addiction appears to be tangible. And thats when my DD are the most intense. Eventually, i get to a point where I am brave enough to get a pair of scissors and actually cutt any headphones that are in my house. Even after doing that, when i get an…Continue
A couple months back I went through a breakup, and well It was very difficult, and i ended up turning to md to cope with it by goinginto my own imaginary world. It has become harder to cope with after the breakup, and also going forth, I have really bad triggers, like I use "very loud music" too get into my trance and I have the repetitive movement of jumping, which believe it or not has affected my knees, as the impact from jumping has given me knee pain, and im afraid if this persists, im…Continue
So today has been a whirlwind for me. I went from being super depressed for sending an awkwardly worded email to a deep MD trance to immersing from the trace feeling unproductive to googling "overdaydreaming" and finding out about maladaptive daydreaming to confidently self-diagnosing myself with this affliction and am now frankly ecstatic to now that I am not alone in this affliction.
Rather than give my entire "coming out" story, I just want to point out the three most surprising…Continue
Im not suggesting anyone do something theyre not comfortable with, or not ready for. But im just thinking what if more people told others about MDD. I personally think that MDD is much more common then any of us realize. For example, as a child, i use to be a compulisve liar. In order to make my dreams feel more real to me, i would tell others about them. I eventually grew out of doing that, thank god, but recently ive been thinking compulsive liars are very well known. Maybe more of them…Continue
It's really awkward to tell anyone about daydreams.I can't tell anyone because sometimes they are totally out of limits i think in my real life i couldn't do it.
Does anyone think MD drains away our intrinsic motivation? I usually not very interested in anything outgoing. What makes me do anything constructive is usually extrinsic motivation. I.E. knowing i will face consequences for not getting a job done instead of desiring to get the job done because i enjoy doing it.
I've been really brainstorming on my daydreams. Between occurrences, I stop and ask myself why I'm doing it. It usually leads to beating myself up, which isn't helpful, but sometimes I get revelations. I daydream so much because I don't know how to cope with the evils of the world. The tragedies, the conspiracies, the "gut feelings" that something is wrong with our world, but not believing anything can be done about it. As a means to stay innocent and keep from conforming to the evil I know…Continue
This is mostly about what concessions you should be expected to make for the sake of a mentally ill member of your family when you do not want to make them, and how to avoid behaving unfairly towards them. It is also a seriously long, ranty post, but I would be so grateful if you read it.
My relationship with my mother fell apart when I was about twelve, and at the time I had no idea why - all I knew was that interactions with her often made me feel angry and spiteful and frustrated.…Continue
Im a young woman, with obvious hearing loss due to my internal addiction. Im starting to realize how MDD is taking a toll on me physically and literally. Any addict, doesnt realize in the moment how what theyre doing effects their entire life. When they take a step back and look at the bigger pitcure, then they see how fueling whatever gets them high, actually ruins everything they value. I call walking around with headphones on "surface using". Its when my DD is at its most intense level.…Continue