Here's a question: Maybe its not actually DDing that is holding us back? Maybe thats just what we tell ourselves and we believe it. For me, it still takes over my life and i have absolutley no handle on it. But latley ive been putting myself out of my comfort zone and good things are happening. I think ive been using DDing as an excuse to not make an effort with life. I realize now that i cant wait for life to happen. Because it wont. It wants you to make the first move, and then gives you…

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This is something ive been doing for a few years. My DD got so bad that i actually resulted to stealing headphones so i then could do what i call "surface using". I call it that because i DD all the time, but when listening to music thats when my addiction appears to be tangible. And thats when my DD are the most intense.  Eventually, i get to a point where I am brave enough to get a pair of scissors and actually cutt any headphones that are in my house. Even after doing that, when i get an…

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Im not suggesting anyone do something theyre not comfortable with, or not ready for. But im just thinking what if more people told others about MDD. I personally think that MDD is much more common then any of us realize. For example, as a child, i use to be a compulisve liar. In order to make my dreams feel more real to me, i would tell others about them. I eventually grew out of doing that, thank god, but recently ive been thinking compulsive liars are very well known. Maybe more of them…

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Im a young woman, with obvious hearing loss due to my internal addiction. Im starting to realize how MDD is taking a toll on me physically and literally. Any addict, doesnt realize in the moment how what theyre doing effects their entire life. When they take a step back and look at the bigger pitcure, then they see how fueling whatever gets them high, actually ruins everything they value. I call walking around with headphones on "surface using". Its when my DD is at its most intense level.…

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I've only seen glimpses of what happiness is, during my life. Those few real memories I have, I cherish so much. Too much actually. I can't seem to let go of the past and move on from them. I'm afraid of them getting further and further away. My daydreams are substitutes for every other memory I have, or emotion I feel. Sometimes I look back on the daydreams I use to have, and I remember how they made me feel. I reminisce about those particular times in my life. I'm realizing now, I have more… Continue