Diagnosis: Defect

[Sky with Diamonds]

It all feels like too much. I'm so exhausted, and scared. And i still don't have many answers. Not only is my head a total basket case, my physical body seems to be as well. I don't know how many bizarre, and uncommon and rare things i have going on with me. Mostly because, no one can tell me for sure what the actual problem is. 

I personally feel, that most diagnosis are being over diagnosed. Bi polar, depression, ADD....it seems as though whenever someone has a problem, call it something and prescribe medication. I'm torn between believing when chemical imbalances need to be treated, or diagnosing someone with something because its easy to. I, myself need all the help i can get, but im so frustrated with finding more and more things wrong with me. 

Normal people have no idea how lucky they are. I wouldn't mind at all living a simple and boring life, if it meant that i were happy. 

[Cordellia Amethyste Rose]

I used to feel that way, but now I embrace new diagnoses, if they resonate with me, because every time I get a new piece of the puzzle, I feel better.  For example, I just finally found the reason why I'm so clumsy and have so much time doing simple, manual tasks like getting dressed.  When I discovered that, I didn't feel worse, I felt like I understood myself a bit better.  Maybe this stresses you because you're judging yourself for having these new things you're discovering.  I did that for many years, and it felt horrible.  The more I understand about myself, the less I judge myself and the less I care about others judging me.  I feel like I'm taking my brain back and embracing it. This certainly hasn't made any of my issues go away, but it's made me more confident.  I openly tell everyone about my issues, and I've gotten into some interesting discussions with people who either share them or are curious about them.  

As for meds, it's up to you whether you want to take them.  Many people find therapy just as effective, if not more so.  I try every med suggested to me, but none have worked except for sleep.  If you feel people take too many drugs and don't want to go down that road, no one's going to force you.  Embrace your brain, and find what works for you.  We'll support you.