Where wild minds come to rest
I'm been a bit panicky. Well, it happens. I have been dozing off a bit. I call daydreaming out of nowhere, "dozing off". All I have been doing is going in and out the hospital since my mom is in there. When I drive, it is annoying tho.
Either way, I am writing my next book as I can. It has been five months now. I've never taken that long to write a book. It usually takes about three months. I'm thinking of taking an extra month of writing it.
Other than that, I'm okay. I'm…Continue
Added by Alexis S Silver on June 14, 2017 at 7:56pm — No Comments
It is really hard to get people to like me. It's always been that way too! It hurts when so many people get ugly and condescending on you. You're just like, "What did I do, really?" Then you realize, they don't think your NORMAL. They find something very weird and off-center about you. Maybe they get "pissed" when you just stand around appearing all awkward, stupid, 'all shut up,' but also a million miles away. They probably wonder, "Where'd she go? Why are her eyes dazed? Is that…Continue
Has anyone's mind wondered into a funny 'comedic' world, to make you feel better, only until somebody caught you in the act, peered at where you laughed at, and then stared directly at you all horrified, as if your psycho?
Has anybody ever vitally mimicked your funny movements and gestures until your face singed in shame? Or has someone overreacted so hard, all because you didn't watch or listen, that it was penetrating?
Added by Jessica Ballantyne on June 12, 2017 at 2:35pm — No Comments
Hey guys, so my membership was recently accepted a few days ago and I am now a member of this forum. So I guess I have to introduce myself and tell my story. So here it goes:
My name is Raphael, I am 16 years old and I am here because I am a maladaptive daydreamer. I never really knew when it started, I do remember “daydreaming” when I was little but I’m not really sure. But I guess it became more apparent recently and that was when I started searching about it. That was how I found…Continue
Just found out my mom has cancer. Big shock. Don't feel like doing anything. If anything, I actually thought that I would die before my parents. I would actually prefer that.
I thought about my reaction from hearing the news. On the inside, I was feeling very torn. The only expression I could give out was a subtle frown. I was never really good at showing my emotions on my own. When I am daydreaming, I would go all out with it. I would speak out my daydreams, walk in circles, and show…Continue
Added by Alexis S Silver on June 10, 2017 at 4:51pm — No Comments
In high school, I had trouble fitting in and making friends, but could have succeeded if I had gotten out of my head. I look back at those little years and reflect on how crazy I actually was. Being a teenager, I was too young to realize that Maladaptive Daydreaming is wrong and it will put a significant effect on everything that goes on in my life. Rather I found MDD all fun and radical, making me laugh a lot, because my day dreams were consisted of comedy and exciting journeys.…Continue
I have no idea what happened...
I am so mortified and stunned and stuff. All I remember is that I've been day dreaming heavily for nearly 20 years.
I had no idea that I had Asperger Syndrome. It made me almost anti-verbal and stuff, couldn't communicate with a dime.
I daydreamed due to 'missing out' and getting frustrated by my realities. Still, it just made me more anti-verbal on people. So, everybody saw the same things. Many totally avoided me...or else they…Continue
Added by Jessica Ballantyne on June 6, 2017 at 12:15pm — No Comments
Having Asperger Syndrome and being Atypical, I got 'made fun of' by others all my life. I still have bad memories of being bullied and accused of things or 'not trusted.' So, day dreaming will bring me back to those days and scare me, as if those times were yesterday. People have noticed I have a hesitant or taunted look on my face and act up all weird towards me.
It's probably because I never said anything and they don't know my life.
I am also still under my mom's…
Added by Jessica Ballantyne on June 5, 2017 at 9:12am — No Comments
It's funny. I spent many years of my life being the strong silent type. It never occurred to me what a significant degree of effect it had on everyone to extent they either got real angry, disturbed, snobbish or mean. They used to gossip all the time behind my back, even compare me to people who are already 'talkative' and 'socially acceptable.' So cruised through life with this deep chip on my shoulder. Whether read a book, did a crossword or went to work, I would be haunted with…Continue
I do feel as if maladaptive daydreaming screwed me over like a boyfriend. It told me sweet little lies, it played games with my heart and it swept me away from opportunities. In the end, it made me look bad in front of people. MDD filled me with warm, affectionate feelings and wonderful promises in some moments. However, at other times, it was also very abusive in a real scary way, and in the end, I fell on my face all sore, bruised and stunned. It distracted my attention away from other…Continue
Added by Jessica Ballantyne on May 30, 2017 at 6:53pm — No Comments
I've been extremely quiet since I was 12, exactly the same age that I started MDD. I've been nearly untalkative since I was a teenager, and now that I am waking up, being too quiet actually bothers me a lot. I am afraid many people will discover it and get very turned off in a upset or burned up way. Before that, when I was littler, I was a very chirpy kid. I would blare my thoughts out at people openly, even though I was still socially inept. I even remember describing my…Continue
Added by Jessica Ballantyne on May 29, 2017 at 6:58pm — No Comments
I notice that because you don't see what you want early enough or at all anytime soon, due to nature's unexplained realities, this will cause you to MDD. People who are usually successful don't do this, because they have what they need—especially when it's no biggie to them. Also, they know better as to how things are accomplished. Kind like the movie stars, musicians and celebrity socialites out there.
For instance, I had no idea that I had Autism until I was 30. Before…
At the moment I feel totally lost, daydreaming seems to be taking over my life. Normally I feel like I have more control over it. I feel like I can set the boundaries.
I would limit myself to DD before going to sleep and could easily cope with being at work and interacting with people. The last month or so I've noticed a change where I feel distant from everyone.…Continue
I haven't gotten much sleep lately. I took a four hour nap today, and now my dazed state is making me daydream more. At least, that's what I think. I am lying in the hospital room with my mother with limited battery (due to breaking my charger, oops), and this neglection to doing anything is making me daydream. I have been avoiding it by using videos and anime. Daydreaming takes up so much of my time, that I had to avoid it somehow.
Well, that's all I have for now.
Everybody I've met did not MDD...in fact, they all found me nuts. Friends I have right now don't even know I do it. I'm still too scared to tell my girlfriend to this very day. In fact, she wonders if I am even listening to her, and so do others.Continue
Added by Jessica Ballantyne on May 26, 2017 at 4:42pm — No Comments
How many people got deceived by their day dreams?
Maybe you lived in your own world.....Maybe you believed things would come soon...such as boy/girlfriends, job advancements, a nice apartment, social acceptance, an exciting journey.
I used to think I can chum around people and get on with them great....when in really, many in real life didn't like me at all and found me 'odd or unsettling.'
I've had so many imaginary romantic relationships. In real life, I've…Continue
I was surfing online and I found this awesome website about MD. It has some interesting perspectives. I recommend you check it out here! Anyways, dream on my friends!
Added by Fallen Messenger on May 25, 2017 at 6:30am — No Comments
I've had it bad most of my life. Not only did I Daydream excessively, but I also had Autism, so I couldn't connect at all.
So, I seldom every made any friends. Everybody I couldn't connect with, they'd usually found me rude, bitchy, weird and stupid. My parents have only liked two of my best friends, and they both remain my BFF. Other friends, I have hooked up with were weirdos. To this very day, I am still trying to find my crowd.
I'm almost finished writing a poetry book and I felt like I should share just a few poems that relate to MD.
10/14/16 2:29 pm
I'm slowly drifting to the end of the earth.
I'm slowing become someone else.
Losing my mind.