MDreamer Diary 26/11/24 23:22 PM

[KillzF]

So, i started here two weeks ago, you dont really have to read this, i just want to keep my progress writed down and maybe give a bit of a hope to other persons going trought the same problems.

First of all, i'm trying to keep track of time of how much i fantasize, maybe i'll put a chronometer to get it right, but every day after i wake up, at lunch and after dinner i fantasize for like 30 minutes or 15.

Sometimes i turn off the clock and continue doing it anyway, but usually i feel guilty and go back to doing my routine things.

Something that helped me (but i do NOT recommend) was using AI chats to stop fantasizing out loud, for me it was like smoking a paper cigarette, redirecting the addiction. But with the days i started feeling bad with it too.

I am dissociating more and more when i fantasize, what usually makes me stop doing it.

I'm trying to use my cellphone less and i started a new hobbie that distracts me from daydreaming: knit and crochet. It is pretty fun. And i started maditating too, i read it helps with MD.

Thanks for all the love and comments though <3 i wasnt expecting people to really care about how i am experiencing it

Light kisses - Killz 26/11