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I have no other place to do this

today i started at my first job. i just had an anxiety attack and started screaming a lot. i am feeling sad and empty and confused and very very very pathetic. i don't like my chosen field and i don't remember my classes, i feel like i am falling off a cliff. i feel like i am an imposter in my own life and i can see the time when my bosses are going to realize how horrible i am. and worse: i need this job, i need to help my mom urgently because we are in a very very bad situation and i should… Continue

Added by Yelena Cheeli on January 24, 2022 at 3:01pm — 5 Comments

For those in therapy, what kind of therapist do you have??

This is my first post in a long time. Decided to go back into therapy for MD, as the daydreaming has been getting a little overwhelming...multiple emotional breakdowns in the past few months. My "intake" appointment with the psychologist went somewhat unexpectedly in that she has no idea where to send me. She says I don't have depression or anxiety, and they've never had anyone that she knows of with a case of maladaptive daydreaming. 

Recent research out of Eli Somer's lab shows it…

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Added by Water Lily on January 19, 2022 at 11:49am — 2 Comments

1965. Effect of emotional deprivation and neglect on babies. Subtitled in English

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ChoOExRLT4Q

The narration of this film references antiquated Freudian psychoanalytic theory, refrigerator mother theory and other anachronisms, and should be taken in a historical context. Catalogue description: This film studies the effect of emotional deprivation on the sensory-motor behaviour of infants aged 7 to 18…

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Added by Observer on January 11, 2022 at 12:30pm — 1 Comment

Fear of being caught

I don't know if this only happens to me, but are you also afraid of people hearing/seeing you daydreaming? Sometimes I think I daydream "out loud" and it makes me insecure. Like, when I stop daydreaming I don't remember if I was speaking or not. Does this happen to you too? Sorry for the bad explanation, I don't really know how to say that

Added by randomdreamer on December 30, 2021 at 4:51pm — 3 Comments

A very un-seasonal poem from late January this year - wanted to share

In the breeze of spring

I am whole

As I regard the pieces of me

Strewn across places I cannot walk to.

Added by Kalliope on December 13, 2021 at 2:00am — 1 Comment

if you feel like you have an open wound

ok, but have you ever read a book, or a movie, or seen a news article about some famous person, of something that happened and it hurt you like it was you? and it hurt like hell and you were devastated for weeks and not even daydreaming could make it better? i have these moments and i am going through one right now. i avoid reading/watching/knowing other things for two reasons: not to daydream about them and not to feel their pain. and i wonder if this is dissociation in its deepest form?… Continue

Added by Yelena Cheeli on December 9, 2021 at 9:08am — 2 Comments

is it normal to rock yourself to sleep?

I've been wondering this for a very long time, but haven't spoke to anyone about it since I'm pretty embarrassed of it. Ever since I was a child, I've rocked myself to sleep while listening to music. Often times I start daydreaming because of the movement, like rocking side to side while I lay in bed or in a recliner that rocks back and forth. Or when I'm in the car, my head will either bounce against the headrest or my body will rock side to side. 

As a kid, though (elementary…

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Added by Trinity on December 3, 2021 at 9:16pm — 1 Comment

Anxiety meds help?

Hi guys!

I have MD plus (social)anxiety. It has been affecting me since always. 

Recently due to some fungal problem on my head, doctor prescribed me some meds(i lost the prescription now) , they seemed to help me afar anxiety(idk how). When I stopped taking them cause the problem was solved, anxiety came back. 

And after 3 months i have a exam which is very important to me as I am in final year of college. I really want to do well there. 

So can anyone suggest me…

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Added by someone on October 8, 2021 at 11:18pm — 1 Comment

The fear of abandonment and how it's affecting me as an MDer

Lately, I've been having daydreams where people I'm close to, abandon me and I'm left all alone.

The dreams involve.

1. The girl I like, who stops talking to me and goes back to her ex and eventually blocks me, for no reason.

2. My closest friends feeling like I'm a burden to them and leaving me.

3. My parents disowning me because I brought shame to the family, due to my slow pace in life and mental health issues.

And then eventually, I become this person…

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Added by Kiruba Victor on September 29, 2021 at 7:57am — 4 Comments

Does Maladaptive Daydreaming effect memory

Hello i have only recently learned about Maladaptive Daydreaming , as long as i can remember i have done it and its been causing me trouble in my life as early as my teens when people could see me through my curtains because of backing light and i did not know . For years i thought i was just schizophrenic and scared to tell any one. But thats back ground probably not needed for my question except to express that i am incredibly un knowledgeable about this . 

So here is my…

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Added by Jacob on September 14, 2021 at 6:16pm — 6 Comments

Concentration with madd

Hey i have read that

it becomes hard to concentrate with maladaptive daydreaming, does that also incl not being able to concentrate even while not daydreaming. Like me i would put on a lecture on YouTube but then I cant concentrate at all but not because ii'd be daydreaming but its just i cant.But then at the same time when someone is physically or virtually present nd makes me learn or learns with me i mean a tutor, then i am able to concentrate nd learn ....

Does anyone know what is… Continue

Added by Xyz on September 13, 2021 at 3:36am — 3 Comments

A Delusional Safe Haven

I recently came to the conclusion that I may indeed be a maladaptive daydreamer....

 Books used to be my escape from reality. When I was in middle school and I had a bad day at school I could just read a cheesy teen novel and picture a better reality. Little did I know that my method of escape would soon be the very thing that entrapped me. I think things went downhill when my imagination started to be a crutch I used to deal with life issues. But then again when the places that are…

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Added by Brianna Smikle on September 11, 2021 at 8:01pm — 1 Comment

Love fantasies

Hi all,

I am new to this and came across this site a few days ago. 

I stumbled across a post from another member about love fantasies. 

When I meet a man who is good to me , I too start building up fantasies about the person in my head. I get obsessed over the person.

 I over think /fantasise and make myself fall in love with the person. In addition , I want the person to fall in love with me. 

This lead to a lot of heartache for me. 



I have lived with this…

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Added by Sasha Petrova on September 9, 2021 at 3:21pm — 3 Comments

Love fixation

Hi,

New member. Does anybody have issues with excessive fantasizing about love interests that you don't really know or are unavailable or celebrities? I'm very embarrassed about this problem because when I get obsessed about them enough and I'm manic (I'm bipolar) I will contact them and humiliate myself. ( Although 3 times it worked and I hooked up with them). I get a high from feeling like they are a soulmate sometimes. I know everybody does this to some degree but I know this level is… Continue

Added by Melanie on September 8, 2021 at 4:27pm — 3 Comments

Just a Theory...

Does anyone have any information about/ think anything about weather MD is linked to dissacosiative identity disorder. I kind of feel like in the dreams, you become a tweaked version of yourself and you genuinely feel different. Any thoughts??

Added by Emma on September 5, 2021 at 2:51pm — No Comments

Just a Little Query...

I find that listening to upbeat music fuels the MD. Does anyone else find that? Sometimes I find myself listening for hours to a playlist and daydreaming for hours.

Added by Emma on September 5, 2021 at 2:37pm — 1 Comment

I have a question

Hi



I have a question



I have difficulty talking to people. Its not that I don't know what to speak. But I can't speak, literally. My heart rate increases and when i speak my voice shivers and i start stammering a lot. Sometimes i even start crying.



I have friends and family, with them i can talk normally. But when someone confronts me or speaks against me, or bullies me, the above mentioned things happen.



And when that incident is over, which means… Continue

Added by someone on August 19, 2021 at 12:03am — 7 Comments

Do you sometimes feel guilty ?

Hey !

Soo I found out very recently about MDD and my first reaction was like « So it has a name ? » because idk for you, but I noticed that something was clearly wrong in my life when I realised that I didn’t want to be here anymore, like….my daydreamings are just way better than the realty, even if I don’t live in a corrupted or toxic environnement, I even have friends (one actually, but it doesn’t matter).

So I was like « But why ? I have all that I need to be happy, I’m even…

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Added by Gaël 71 on August 14, 2021 at 3:26pm — 3 Comments

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