Does anyone else know their astrological chart?  I suspect that my MDD has to do with a Moon conjunct Neptune in Libra in 12th house, also conjunct Chiron.  Does anyone else have a similar configuration?

What's up with all the spam this page is getting? Is this why people seem to not be using it anymore and how do I flag it? 

What's up with all the spam this page is getting? Is this why people seem to not be using it anymore and how do I flag it? 

Hello everyone! So I've decided to share some of my experiences and see if any of you have experienced these as well! I want to post this thinking this might be good information for the future. I know that some of these experiences, we are already experiencing but...

-Most common urge to daydream: Friday night, since I have time away from school and work

I've noticed that free time takes my mind away into…

this has only happened one other time in the 3 years i've lived with roommates, which was in november. this was 5 minutes ago - i had absolutely no idea that my roommate was in the room and i began to pace. she started laughing so hard she was crying and said "why did you just do that??"

i was so shocked because i had no idea that she was even in the room. and when i'm pacing, i can't tell what it looks like. i describe it as pacing and to me i'm just pacing, but my mom has told me…

I make lists of what I want to get done everyday and if I don’t get it done, I feel horrible. I think it would help to have other people to communicate the small day to day goals with so I can support others in their goals and stop losing so much time everyday. Does anyone else need this kind of support in their lives? 

As Kenny Rogers sang "Just dropped in to see what condition my condition was in". Read the blogs, all very good and I relate a lot. I've been dealing with shame and guilt recently. It seems like a lifelong issue. I was never good enough or tried hard enough...blah blah blah. I think it is crucial that I accept my condition (MDD), but not surrender to it, and forgive myself. For me, it is a defense mechanism to make myself feel worthy of being accepted and Loved. That is the key element in…

I’m in a support group, ASCA (Adult Survivors of Child Abuse) and I am working on a step (think AA) and it’s “I will sense my inner child whose efforts to survive now can be appreciated.” This is a tough one. I’ve been able to sense my inner child but I’m still working on the appreciation part, especially with Maladaptive Daydreaming. I’m usually focused on how it’s taken away opportunities in my life or kept me stuck. But, I started daydreaming for a reason and it served a purpose – and…

I made it a couple weeks without pacing. 

I relapsed recently- but in a different way than before. 

Usually, there was one place (my bedroom) where I could pace and daydream for hours. 

I've been able to avoid pacing there since February 14th, but in turn, I've begun pacing in other places, like a locked bathroom or the halls of my house when everyone is gone. It feels like a relapse, although the severity of the pacing is lowered because my time is limited and can be…

Hi. This is my first post on here, so I wanted to go over why I think I might have MDD and see if anyone else has experienced something similar. Sorry in advance for the length- this is actually the short version.

I've been daydreaming vividly almost every day for 4 years. I've always loved telling stories, and the first time my daydreams became so strong was when I decided that I wanted to meet a character I love from a video game. I created an imaginary plot line which would allow…

Usually in my daydreams, I am this highly well-read and eloquent person speaking on very intellectual subjects in an assembly of people I know in real life and everyone of whom I wanted to impress with my skills and prove that I am capable, but for a myriad reasons couldn't(and those reasons including MD's excruciating by product-OCD,atleast in my life,are a discussion for another day)However the point that I seek to broach today is this that In my daydreams I feel more alive than…

Often I find myself blurting out nonsensical sentences. Somewhat like a stream of consciousness without any meaning. I'm pretty sure it happens when a negative or painful memory or feeling comes to mind. My ego wants to avoid pain so its default defense is to replace the pain with any other thought that will cause a distraction. Weird, I know. I have been making a conscious effort to allow myself to feel whatever is triggering this action. My hope is to confront the issue with my new…

Hey everyone! It's been so long since I've contributed to a website, let alone sign up for it. Anyways, I'm a high school student who has been daydreaming for ever since I was around 8-9 years old. Now I started daydreaming due to the awesome actions scenes and music in this one video game. I decided to make up a plot in my head based on the events in the game itself but instead, mine has myself, the people I know, and even the fictional characters. Ever since then, whatever show/game I find…

First of all, I just want to say thank you so much to Ms. Cordellia Rose for this lovely website. It helps me so much to have a safe outlet to come to and share my thoughts, feelings, concerns, etc., since my family members, boyfriend, and even therapist are completely in the dark about MDD. 

     I am Jennifer, a 21 year old college student who struggles with MDD. I daydream at least 3 times a week, and it is always…

I have been diagnosed with panic disorder. I discribed my doc what i was going through and told her about my mdd. She prescribed me olepra and zoloft. I have been calm since than but today again i started to get scared. I thought i was losing touch with reality and beliveing my daydreams to be true. This is so confusing. Am i actually psychotic? Has anyone over here experienced this? Please do respond..

Sorry, i am new to this website and majority of the time i have no idea what i am doing. And i absolutely know no one over here which just makes things harder. Can anyone help me with this? Your help will be appreciated! Love :*

It almost feels like i have no emotions towards the real world. I feel happy, sad or any other emotion only when I daydream. I never feel them in real world... it feels like all my emotions have been pushed in the back of my head and I cant find any way to pull them back out in reality. Does anyone else feel like this? Can anyone help me with this? 

Last night I had a nightmare. It might be more accurate to call it a night terror. It isn't that unusual for me, I used to have them very often. Over the years they have lessened quite a bit.  I don't usually remember what they are about, I only know that I am terrified. So much so that it's hard for me to scream out and I'm almost paralyzed. I do scream out now, which scares my wife as much as it does me.

I have had these nightmares from a very young age, sometime around when I began…