I have cried several times. I feel a great deal of pain. I wrote some poems but they are so bad. The only friend I have is not talking to me for some reason. I don't know what I did because we hadn't spoken in a while. I have "friends" but none of them respond to anything I say. I am so isolated and so alone. My family just dismisses me and doesn't understand me.

It just confirms the vicious cycle for why I DD. It is the only way I have to forget that I am all alone. I just don't…

“When you're attacking, never forget that you're attacking"

My brother reflection about Samurai Champloo philosophy

More than a month ago I fight the daily battle against MD. Like many things in life, end it is just a matter of taking the actual decision to do so. Never imagine you would get out of that circle. Many times I have made decisions to improve my quality of life, and leave certain bad habits or pay more attention at work. But always failed and I felt…

Hi, I go by the name Mai. Like many others, I did not know what I was dealing with is maladaptive daydreaming for a long time.

It started when I was in elementary school. I was a very quiet kid and had few friends. I always felt left out. Even friend weren't really that much of friends. We were just like a group of kids hanging around each other. Even as a quiet child, I craved attention from other children. I started to lie, making up simple stories in my head that I would tell to…

i think this meditation cures mdd ..keep looking whenever yourmind drifts bring it back to what ur eyes see...do it whole day..and u wont b able to dd

Okay so just now I was reading a fanfiction and it really got me wanting to dd a similar scenario to what was happening, like a really intense one and after a bit I randomly got up and went just out the door, a few steps down the hall then wondered what I was doing. I came back, sat down and realised this scenario was intense enough I just really, really needed to pace (or just walk somewhere really briskly). Not around my room, it's not big enough. But hey, Mum's in the living room…

I'm currently in grade 12 and I have to balance my DD life with studying. My mom's telling me to get a job to work part time on the weekends. I've had a job before but it was only in the summer where I didn't have to balance DDing with studying. Although that job was everyday, it was only for a few hours and I didn't have to constantly socialize with coworkers and deal with custormers(I worked with kids). In this current job, I'll be a cashier, I'm not sure how many hours I'll have to work…

I assume that most of people have already been through this.We recognize our condition,then we find this site,then get excited and start struggling to overcome this condition.First two days are usually successful then slowly we drown in DD.

I've been like that,then I started praying  a lot,then I don't daydream as  I used to be.Now I don't find comfort in daydreams as I used to be but the problem is:If I can't find comfort in daydream,what can I do? If I overcome daydreaming, what…

Maladaptive daydreaming is a condition where you’re sitting on a beach, watching the waves, imagining what is under the water’s surface. The world behind you is a desert, and even if it’s not, you can not turn around to look at it because the water is so so pretty. You know you can not breathe underwater, you know you can not go there, because in the moment you leave the land completely you will drown and die, but still… 

You will sit there forever, and it will destroy you, because…

Hello to everyone

I found this site a week ago and now I´m calm and have some time to formulate what I have to say. I do have things to say, because as everyone here I´ve spent time being alone with my MD.

Firstly, I´m really happy to see so many people who can really understand me completely. I read some stories, some discussions, now I have the impression of being a member of an anonymous club. That´s good becase here we have no shame and we can share our thoughts and…

My brother came down from New York because he was not feeling too good, last week. Ever since then our guest bedroom is full because a lady is staying with us until she gets back on her feet so he has to stay in my room :( I do hope he feels better...soon. I have loft beds...it's like the bottom bed is a queen size and transforms into a couch and the top is a twin size. I sleep on the top bunk now. He…

Okay, so. Short story time. The more important part is bolded, if you can't be bothered reading it all.

I did a course in organics which finished back in July. Next year in February I'm going to be studying Agriculture.

I have spent the past four months doing nothing "productive" (aka, I've been earning no money nor received any formal education.)

Recently (and I don't know how it happened, it just did.) I've improved my sleeping pattern and been getting enough / close…

I have tried not to daydream for about a week now. Yesterday and today I find myself doing it and I cry and feel extremely sad that I did it again. “I'm like an alcoholic with an unlimited supply of booze everywhere I go. When I do it too much I feel sick & dazed, yet I can't stop.” this statement is so true guys. today I feel like I am way too late to stop this is part of who I am and maybe I will be a daydreamer for the rest of my life. I feel sad that I cannot control…

Disclaimer

****This is for people who no longer want to have MDD and who believe in the power of Prayer and want God to heal their illness/stronghold/demonic spirit/ mind  torement. I have to share this information with all of you  because Wildminds was the first website/community I discovered about MDD and thats when I realized I wasn't the only one and I felt apart of a special community.

I totally understand if you want to keep MDD or don't believe it is a demonic…

This video is completely AWESOME!  Everyone should see this.  It's not only about gays and lesbians.  I think everyone can relate.  Her 3 rules at the end are great to live by, especially if you're afraid to talk about your MD.  …

Oh the irony... After spending years daydreaming about my characters suffering from car accidents, I am actually experiencing one of those horror stories for real. To cut the long story short, I was struck by a car while standing in the shoulder lane. The impact threw me over a cement wall/barrier. My injuries include two broken legs, broken right arm, knee ligament tears, and nerve damage in right arm.  I actually have a total of seven fractures, but I can't remember all of those crazy…

It went well!  I spent hours making notes in case I froze up, and I was very nervous, but I didn't end up needing them.  He's a very nice guy, and we just talked for about 30 mins.  I told him he could use my name, but it can be completely anonymous.  It felt good to know that my voice is being heard by people in the psychological community.  I want them to wake up and listen to us.  I want them to figure out ways to help us, and I said so.  

If anyone else wants to…

You know, I have said many times before that even if I could be in my DD world for real, I wouldn't because Ideal Me goes through to much pain and I couldn't handle that.

But I've realised a few things.

One: Usually when I say no, I'm thinking of the main part of my DDs, which is pretty negative (though there are high points and 'meh' points)

Two: There's also my 'future' DD (okay, both are set in the future but the first is only a few years away, the second maybe 15…