So I just got a dose up not too long ago. So far I am improving somewhat in handling social situations and normal everyday things.

However I still feel numb and number each day to the point of no intrest in anything. O.o I'm not sure if this is going to be a sign of becoming suicdal again like I was one time. I don't think it is because at least I'm comfortly numb.

Anyways I just wanted to give a quick update.
Thanks for reading, have a nice day. :)

Hello everyone,

Have you all heard of that show called My Strange Addiction? It's this weird documentary, on channel TLC, about real people who have strange addictions, or just strange behavior that they repeat.

( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9LY5Z6tyrY8 )

And I know another season of this is coming up, and I thought 'Well, maybe...Just maybe I could sign up for it and describe my…

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http://www.blogtalkradio.com/daydreaming/2012/10/06/maladaptive-daydreaming

As you've all noticed, I haven't come on this site in a long time. Well during the summer, I told my bestfriend about my MD and about this site. She was supportive towards my MD and she didn't think I was crazy. But she wasn't too fond of me coming on this site. She says that I should focus on reality and interacting with real people more. She thinks that I come on this site for comfort knowing that there are people like me. She argues that if she looks up her insecurities as well, she…

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It seem the most stupid idea I had for a while. But just now I feel trying anything for a change. I just feel so tired all the time.

So my eyes are dry. Its quite common problem for people working on computer. But the eye drops I used are not working anymore. I'm trying gel. But I just begynn to ask myself what is the psychological meaning of dry eyes. I am going to a therapist who is very focus on body, learn me to breath or to sit relax.

So what is the psycological meaning of…

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When I first started on the internet, in around 2000, I did several searches on daydreaming, and variations using other words.  I never found anything helpful, and after sporadically trying for a few years, I had given up.  For some reason three days ago I tried again and was startled to discover this site and to read the paper by Jayne Bigelsen and Cynthia Schupak (Compulsive fantasy: Proposed evidence of an under-reported syndrome through a systematic study of 90 self-identified…

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CHAPTER 1:

          No man is an island, but give him a workforce and he can build one. All he needs is the passion to succeed and a willing crowd, a rare combination in this egotistic society. Imagine, however, an individual, no one special, but one who has an idea. The idea is to gather a crowd of other individuals like him self. Now, as the saying goes, "three's a crowd", but how about three thousand, three million even. An endless…

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In the morning when I woke up I started DD.  I wish I could enjoy the time with my son and not DD.   I also surfed the Internet looking at the lives of certain celebrities which is also a trigger for my MD.  Any time I am walking (normally with music but can be without) I also DD.  One day I think I daydreamed so much that I had a headache.  There is cycle-  DD, Guilt, DD, Guilt.  I sometimes beat myself up as to why I can't stop this MD.  Otherdays, I say to myself it is a condition you are…

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I am obsessed with figureing out why I DD about certain things. I think I am finally starting to see a pattern, at least with some themes. For example, at times when I am needing to be neutured I DD about a child, one who needs to be cared for. So I in the DD become the care giver, that I really need in real life. I finally made the connection yesterday when I was really angry at my husband for acting childish and not taking responiblity. That leaves me to be the "adult" in the relationship…

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So, I'm going to get straight to the point with this blog post. I know from talking to a few of you, and from lurking other posts, that a lot of you are just as 'socially awkward' as I am. We aren't the outgoing extroverts that society wants us to be.

Truthfully, I believe being an introverted and shy guy or gal has its advantages. But easily making friends isn't one of them.

For over a month now, I have been trying to make friends at my new…

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When you get what you want, the daydreams weaken.

After my "graduation" I got  money and sex a boyfriend and a job: I wanted both for a long time and, naturally, they were anti-MD motivation. So I improved a lot during  2011/12. I also achieved things I never could before. 

Example: I had social phobia, but my job was to sell things. Bad match! But I had learned a trick online: creating an imaginary shield that…

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