Hi everyone!  Cynthia just emailed me and asked me to put the word out to the forums that her study has been closed for about a year.  Apparently she's still getting inundated with requests to join.  She's working on revisions for her publisher and hopes to get it published soon.  It's very exciting but also a very long process.  She's working very hard and is very dedicated to helping us.  I can't wait.  Message me if you have questions or need anything.

Okay, I think I just finished my story.  I'm at a good ending spot.  This is an update to my previous blog that had the first half of the story.  I'm tentatively calling it Painted Scars.  Let me know if you think that title fits.  Also, for those of you who haven't been here a long time, this is the blog of the main character from my story Miles.  It ends with her killing Miles, as it's implied she does in that story.  I thought that would be a good ending spot.  Otherwise, it…

Ok, this one might be gross, so beware.  Don't read on if you don't want to read about poop.  

For the past few days the cats have had really bad diarrhea, and it's been worrying me.  At first it was no big deal.  They frequently vomit, and it's all part of having really fluffy cats.  I figured a little diarrhea now and then was no big deal and would pass.  That was for the first couple of days.  

Over the past couple of of days it started to really worry me.  What if it's…

OMG my Monday night class is TORTURE.  I want to cry.  Why do people smack that much?  Seriously every time they open their mouth for FOUR HOURS.  My ears hurt.  I just wanted to cover them and cry.  I don’t participate in class.  It’s really hard to care at all when you just want to scream.  There’s this blond girl who sits next to me, and she tries to be friendly, but she smacks when she eats, talks, BREATHES.  I just want to strangle her.  She does this for the entire class.  Everyone…

Ok, so for my next story for class, I thought I'd try and write the blog of the person in my first story, Miles.  It's basically her chronicling her descent into madness as her sensitivities take over.  I have NO idea if it's good or completely boring.  Does anyone actually want to read this?  It's largely biographical, so I'm even more connected to it and even less aware of whether people want to read my boring issues.  It's not nearly done.  I just thought I'd post what I have so far in…

I took a chance and emailed my prof about my anxiety and told her how bad the smacking is.  I didn’t say it was her that was smacking so much, only “people in class”.  I had mentioned it briefly on the first day, so she would know why if I was flinching or covering my ears.  I told her it’s not a good idea for me to do a presentation with my anxiety, and to my surprise, she understood.  I told her I’d like to do another assignment but would take the grade deduction if necessary.  She…

First of all, to those who don't know, I have REALLY bad misophonia, which is extreme hatred of certain sounds.  There are some sounds that are so horrific to me that I'll pound on my ears and cry just to try and drown them out.  They're so bad, and I get so angry and horrified.  I've often wondered if it wouldn't be better just to be deaf and never hear anything rather than hear those sounds ever again.  The more frustrated I get, the more sensitive I am to the sound, so it just snowballs.…

Here is my second story.  It's essentially the story-within-a-story of my last story, Miles.  I didn't really title it since it's just the actual telling of an old story line and there are too many other characters in my head for this to feel like a real story in itself.  Almost none of it's new material.  

Kevin

            I didn’t think it would end this way.  This wasn’t supposed to happen.  You don’t own me, you bitch.  You’re mine. …

Here is my first foray into fiction in many years.  I've been scared to write about my characters because my world is so vast that it's impossible to pull out a few for a story line.  I wrote 2.  

In this story, I wanted to confront one of the biggest fears Maladaptive…

I had my last final yesterday, so I'm officially in Spring Break.  I'm going through severe anxiety because all the news reports say there's supposed to be a "twin earthquake" to the one in Japan over here, and there's no way my cats and I would survive.  I can't imagine surviving and losing them.  They're such good little souls.  So sweet.  In fact, Grendel's waking up & going to be howling for love in a second.  

Aside from that, I find myself very listless.  I'm not…

For my grammar class we had to write a few sentences about our role models and then rewrite them.  Here is what I wrote.  Lol.  I kept cracking  up because I was so bold.  I'm highly impressed with myself for the moment.......not because my writing is genius as this is crap for my grammar class, but because I told the truth and flaunted it.  Here's what I wrote.  I wonder if my prof is thoroughly puzzled right now.

Prompt:

"Reflect upon the mentors or personalities…

Hi guys,

Sorry I haven't posted in awhile.  I wasn't really sure what to say.  To be honest, I don't want any advice really about how to fix my life or my MD.........unless anyone has any advice for how to get published, which case I'm still interested.  I try to live completely openly and honestly.  Either change it or learn to love it.........and there's a lot of me that I have to make that decision with.  I'm not good at changing stuff, and I'm not really ready to love some of it,…

I've been needing some time off.  All the stress of spending all day trying to focus enough to pay attention and do a few lousy math problems was exhausting me.  Now I'm bored and broke with nothing I can focus enough to do.  I play around on the internet all the time, sometimes working on the site, sometimes just reading any & all news for hours.  I've played with a few of Chrome's new apps but I'm too dazed to really get into any of the games.

That's the thing.  I've been…

Hi guys,

Here are my notes from Vlog 4. I always type some up in case I choke or forget to say something.

* First, I would like to welcome all the new members to mysite. We're very glad to have you. You've had a lot of greatideas so far, and a lot of you really just want to help,and I think that's just great.

* The next thing I want to talk about is the debate over howto view Maladaptive Daydreaming. I know it's frustrating to have a new condition and on one…