At my 100%

[Cordellia Amethyste Rose]

This is a writing exercise we did in class today.

When I am at my 100%, I will be a leader. I will be wise enough to know how to stand up for myself, even though I am in the minority. I will be able to explain myself to people who think I should just conform. I will know how to tell them that the society they're so fond of describing is a group of individuals, and that I am one. I will tell them that just as these individuals accept and get used to each other, they will have to accept and get used to me too. The majority is not right. The majority shuns new things until the new thing educates them properly. Society is closed until someone new opens it, until someone who's been shunned stands proud and shows them that the world will not come crashing to an end if they accept them too. Every new type of indivdual who's done this has changed society for the better. At my 100%, I will stand proud and not be afraid to help society evolve by accepting me. Only when I show them how to accept me, will I be able to accept them.

At my 100% I will help people like me to stand proud. I will lead them. I will keep figuring out
the answers and do so aloud so that others can see. I will stand and fall without shame. I will improve and fall back without shame. I will quit daydreaming a hundred times and then fall back into a binge yet again until I'm sick. I will blog about this sadly but unashamedly. Why be ashamed? Rising and falling are apart of the human condition. At my 100%, I will still be 100% human.

At my 100% I will find enough outer activities that I enjoy and lead such a fulfilling outer life
that my inner perfect world will no longer become necessary. I will remember my characters fondly, as they've carried me since I was a baby, but I will not dwell on them and risk slipping. I will enjoy the outside world and love it the way I loved my fantasy world. I will learn to accept people and show them how to accept me without either of us having to alter our state of being. I will not pretend I was ever perfect, nor will I announce my defect. I'm not defective. I'm wholly human and wholly unique. My brain works differently. It will work in a better way to suit me and help me live better. I will use my brain, in all its difference, fully. I will use my ability to think more productively. I will keep thinking and write more of it down. I will remember all my struggles and tell them to everyone who needs to hear them.

I will console every new daydreamer who realizes they have this condition and are scared. I will remind them of the beauty of a mind that lives in two worlds. I will remind them of the strength it entails. I will remind them of all the worse addictions out there than this. I will find tools to help them and learn how to express them. I will show them simple ways to make things better. I will remind them that the goal is not to be normal but to be their best self. In the end, we'll all learn how to live our best selves and feel glad we had this condition.

[The1andonlyAbber]

You already are a leader :-D. You lead people in the MD community through this site (which has helped me a LOT).

[Cordellia Amethyste Rose]

I always say there are clues to who we really are in our daydreams.  Obviously, if our dreams are more fantastical, we can't do everything, but there are clues.  What is it about them and who we are in them that makes them so alluring?  I think we should pay attention to them.  I think often we  tell ourselves that we want things because we think we can't have what we really want.  If we look in our dreams, that inspire us so much, then we might just find what we're really meant to do.

Anyway, my character is a huge advocate among everything else.  That sounds very appealing.  She's a leader, a writer, and a great thinker.  Those things are all possible in the real world, so I'm working at it.  I know I'm meant to be a leader, either way.  This is part of me that I can't ignore.  I don't put up with people & do what they tell me.  I'm always the boss, so like it or not, I have to find a way to embrace that.  I'll only be at my 100% when I embrace who I am & use it.  

[Delorean Jones]

It's interesting, reading about people like us, that have been diagnosed with delusions of grandeur or mania ~ but then they actually do change the world. I've often wondered if I'm daydreaming too much about having a great impact, or if I should eliminate my doubt and just go for it. I suppose in the end, I should go for it anyway, doubts or not.  "There are no limits, only plateaus. Man must constantly exceed his level." 

What do you think your greatest goal is?