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Spring break: creating my own chaos

I had my last final yesterday, so I'm officially in Spring Break. I'm going through severe anxiety because all the news reports say there's supposed to be a "twin earthquake" to the one in Japan over here, and there's no way my cats and I would survive. I can't imagine surviving and losing them. They're such good little souls. So sweet. In fact, Grendel's waking up & going to be howling for love in a second.

Aside from that, I find myself very listless. I'm not finding my daydreams very inspiring anymore. Occasionally things kick up, but I'm really tired of it after all these years. I just want my brain to feel something different. It's bored of that same old stimulus. I want to to feel something new and invigorating. If any of you read my discussion post, reading is a huge effort. If I keep at it enough, it can often get better, but it's always a huge challenge and takes hours & hours fighting myself to get going. I just ordered 5 books online & got them almost for free thanks to Wego Health. (They gave a couple of Amazon gift cards for participating in a couple of surveys.) I'll have to order the rest after financial aid gets here, which means they'll probably all arrive late. One of my profs told me which book we're reading first. Another didn't know, and the 3rd didn't respond to my query. Oh well. I might see if the library still has the one I know. It's always doubtful I'll get much reading done but better to start that long process early rather than waiting 'til I only have a little bit of time and other books to read. I'm so bored & listless. If I don't find some relaxing, enjoyable stimulus, I'm probably just going to keep panicking over things & creating my own chaos.

I'm trying to relax, but it's hard when every news report says horrible danger is only a moment away. I hope that's not true. I love my kitties. Grendel was really feisty last night. He stuck his head in a new box I gave him & was grabbing onto my arm with his front claws while kicking joyfully at it with his hind claws. It was SO painful & I had to go to bed with ointment & bandages all over my lower arms, but he was just having fun. He was being silly and playful. When I get some money, I am definitely taking him in to get his claws trimmed. He's a lovey boy, but he's very violent when he plays.

Ok, well I hope everyone is doing fine. I think of you all often. Please let me know if you need anything. I'm here to help, and I've got nothing but time on my hands for the moment

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Comment by Casey on April 11, 2011 at 1:55pm: @sallyann: I feel like a lot of us might be "spiritual" in the ways of trying to find a path that works for each of us individually. I know for myself it was certainly an avenue I've turned and used to try to help me cope in my life (though, I'm certain the path I've chosen isn't the mainstream path for most MD people, mainly because it isn't mainstream itself).

With animals, I know I had dogs and cats as a child, and they certainly helped me to know love. I think anyone who is feeling down can atest to how happy an animal can make anyone feel.

@Amethyste: thanks again. You're vlogs and blogs really do bring me a sense of not being alone. Keep it up, you're doing such a beautiful thing for so many people :)

Comment by Cordellia Amethyste Rose on March 18, 2011 at 7:25pm: No clue.

Comment by roxanne on March 18, 2011 at 6:54pm: I wonder how many of us love animals, cats in particular? I also wonder how many of us are religious. Any idea?