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I can't say I.....

I've always wondered why I couldn't say "I love you". At first I thought it was just because the people I grew up with were mean, and why should I love them? Then I thought I was just weird. Now I'm realizing that I can't say I feel anything. I remember after I got my hair cut, the instructors were asking me if I liked it, expecting some sort of "I" statement back. All I could say was "She did a great job." and "It's great." For the life of me I couldn't give any sort of opinion starting with "I". I can't even say "I love you" to my kitties, who are the sweetest, most perfect kitties in the world. I can't say I feel anything. I've always assumed it was because of the situation or that I'm just strange. Now I realize that it's because I'm so dazed and disconnected from the outer world. I don't know how "I" feel because "I" feel like I'm not even IN this world. The outer world is so distant and foggy to me. It's no wonder I can't feel anything for it, and I really can't. I'm a sensitive, emotional person......but I'm also incapable of being present enough to really know how I feel about anything.

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Comment by Julie on May 2, 2011 at 2:45pm: Emotional detachment would apply to me, as well. I though, I'm an Aspie, a person, who can't recognize and express emotions. But I'm not (give back my money for psychology books about Asperger). I just don't feel anything, probably. Day-dreaming absorbed all emotions.

It may sound crazy, but sometimes I also think, I don't exist. This is just a set of projections or something. Maybe, because, where I am now, I was in my dreams 10 years ago, and I need to monitor and control this dream. Crazy.

Looking at the comments, I would classify myself as terrible liar as I learnt love and hate expressions as a foreign language. The funny thing about learning a foreign language is, that if you practice a lot, you start to think in it.

Comment by Jane Wilson on May 1, 2011 at 3:19am: My question would be do you have intense emotions when you day dream? Then real life seems dull in comparison? Then you are in the right spot, at least from reading the blogs it seems to be a common situation for MD's. If you do not have any or very few emotions under any circumstances and you are not on strong pain medication you may want to research dissociative disorder. I have always had strong emotions unfortunately they were very hostile to me. It was only by escaping into daydreaming and creating an asceptible version of myself that I could embrace positive emotions associated with my character.