An unbreakup happens when one makes a final, hopefully lasting, decision to get over someone they never dated, once and for all. I un-broke up with my crush around six weeks ago and have definitely improved since.

If I were to reduce my feelings for my crush into percentage points, my feelings were at 100% about a year ago, last winter. They fluctuated around 70-90% in the spring, summer and fall and definitely remained an obsession. 

Now, I'd say my feelings for my crush are…

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 I finally realized that my MD is about being a hero and rescuing others in their time of need. But my MD wasn't the cause of it, it was a reflection. In my daydreams, I rescued the one I admired from her boyfriend who broke her heart. In reality, I lived through her problems and was constantly worried about trying to 'fix' her and be her hero like I did in my dreams. I now discovered that I have Co-dependency. In my dreams I COULD be a hero, and be admired for it and be shown gratitude. But…

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ok, I've only made 2 entries but I don't feel any better. I read a FB post about MD being a gift. That just brought up some many terrible feelings. A place I had gone to for support, telling me it isn't a problem. There's nothing wrong with you, this is great. Why doesn't it feel great? I did the entry in the CBT diary and got all the postive statments to tell myself. Isn't helping. I felt hopeless, I just wanted to........well. I am sitting at my desk at work, crying, I can't stop. My…

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When I am in deep thought I can most definitely see vivid pictures of highly intelligent thoughts. However I am unable to express them into words.

Anyone else?

Be careful what you think, for your thoughts become your words.

Be careful what you say, for your words become your actions.

Be careful what you do, for your actions become your habits.

Be careful what becomes habitual, for your habits become your destiny.

 Thanks to EludeMyFantasies, I have finally realized what I've been searching for. MD is a choice just like any other habit. It's just a very thick mist…

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A therapist in your pocket! New mobile apps let you try DIY therapy. May sound like a bad idea, I mean of course finding a good therapist you can open up to would be the best. But if you are in a remote area, or financially unable to aford therapy, then this may be a good option.

There are many CBT (cognative based therapy) apps out there, some for a fee and some free. I decided to try one, I downloaded CBT diary for free. I don't know how much help it will be for my MD but maybe at…

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 When I was in 8th grade, I had a dream that I wanted to write a book about an adventure that really happened to me. I wanted to awe people and make them say "Wow! This was real? I thought it was fiction!"  So in order to do that, I chose people from the real world (my classmates) and started to plan my story and how it would go. I truly believed it was going to somehow come true. I dreamed of my buddies (my classmates who I never even talked to) and I were going to join up as a group when I…

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I realised just a few hours ago that I have maladaptive daydreaming. I am scared. I have very important exams in a week and I often find myself daydreaming yet again. I fantasise about incidents in the past, incidents in the future (that will never happen) and I fantasise about myself being interviewed it having a argument and since I want to be a singer I sometimes imagine myself on a stage and totally start rocking out. I lose attention from my books every so often and lose myself in a… Continue

If you tell people who don't have md what it is they will most likely think it is not such a big deal. They will most likely say "I dd too" "Oh there is no such thing as md. We all dd"

This is why I don't tell anyone. No one understands the tool it can have on us.





Am I the only one who stays in their room and just daydreams? I love it. I sit in the car with my headphones and dd when we go places. It a beautiful escape.



My mom now always tell me that I am always… Continue

 When I had my biggest episode of MD for a year and a half, I sunk so deep in it that I actually started to believe it was going to come true. I thought I was crazy.

So, most people with MD know whats reality and whats just a daydream, but so many of us get so attached to these characters, or to these worlds, and how can we get so attached to something we KNOW isn't real? I think that, maybe, somewhere deep down, we believe that this world exists in a way even if we don't know it. Has anyone ever felt like it's there somehow? And I'm not saying I believe we think of it as reality, but just that maybe we imagine, or hope, that it is somewhat real, somewhere.… Continue

My thoughts and daydreams are driving me crazy. Honestly I'm surprised no one sees it but if they did I would have been put in a mental institute long ago. I replay real life events from years ago that I felt bad or disliked in my head over and over again. And its like a form of torture but I just can't stop. Every time it happens I cringe, I just wish there was a way to escape.. from myself. I hate my daydreams simply because I know its never going to be like that. I feel like I used to…

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