Being driven crazy by my own thoughts.

[Zoe]

My thoughts and daydreams are driving me crazy. Honestly I'm surprised no one sees it but if they did I would have been put in a mental institute long ago. I replay real life events from years ago that I felt bad or disliked in my head over and over again. And its like a form of torture but I just can't stop. Every time it happens I cringe, I just wish there was a way to escape.. from myself. I hate my daydreams simply because I know its never going to be like that. I feel like I used to find comfort in my daydreams because I felt like they were going to happen in real life. I daydream about the older me a lot, and I find comfort because I think that that is what its going to be like. I am sick of it. I just want to be like I am in my daydreams. In real life I feel stuck, nothing makes sense to me. I over analyse certain things way too much but in other ways I am incredibly careless. I feel like my brain is going to explode. I can't do it anymore. 

Also the fact that I went looking for help from my parents and nothing happened. If they only knew. I know I suffer from at least 2 other disorders, OCD and anxiety. I don't want to sound like I am diagnosing myself with everything but I know I have them and I just want to deal with it but I can't on my own and there is no one to help me. 

Sorry for the whining, this post doesn't really make sense either but I just wanted to write something today. 

[taffle]

I also have OCD and anxiety, and the OCD is what drives me nuts. It makes me replay negative events over and over again in my head, even though they occur a long time ago. One thing that I find helps me is releasing my thoughts and emotions right after a negative event happens. I used to keep things to myself because I'm  private person, but this led to suppressed emotions in danger of exploding. And these negative events will haunt me many years later. So now I try to express my feelings whenever I can so that I don't bottle them up.

Have you tried joining anxiety and OCD support forums? Here are some:

www.socialanxietysupport.com/forum/

www.socialphobiaworld.com