I have a weird pattern of behavior. I go about my daily life wandering aimlessly in my mind, whether I'm going shopping, on a business mission, on a road trip, or socializing out with friends and family. I have a weird habit of not really being entirely "here." It's as if, no matter how old I am—I still think I'm in some fanciful land...where I can be complacent and live freely, and nothing bad is going to happen. Apparently, because of this, somebody else…

I tend to admire public figures and their families online, but feel that I have parasocial relationships with them. They have no idea that I think about them everybody and always reviewing their instagram platforms, videos, articles, and websites. I then start to fantasize that I am their friend and we know each other, whereas in real life, who knows how they'd react if we've ever actually met. Well I'd been a fan of this singer and learned all about their wife & daughter,…

I see that not everybody has my brain...and they're not me...but, I feel like whenever I'm around people, I got so embarrassed or burned. It does depend on the social group, but I happen to be around people who don't know what to make of me, and can't put a finger on what I'm doing in my head...to block out the their words. 



I'll be blunt. I've had a lot of people respond to me in a way, they think I'm suddenly off in another universe or they're figure I'm suddenly someplace…

This may sound obvious to many daydreamers. I started MD when I was 12, and wish that I talked with my parents about my daydreaming disorder immediately when it started to make me laugh for nothing around everyone. It would've saved me the next 25 years of turmoil. Saying this, I daydreamed thickly through my teens, 20's and maybe regularly in my 30's. 

My grades were bare passes and I made lousy decisions towards my future, which I eventually regretted.



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