Jessica Ballantyne
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Pretending to be other people

Started Apr 27 0 Replies

Back in secondary school, my English teacher noticed how extremely quiet I was sitting there, not taking part in everybody's conversations. At some point I took part in a curling club, she…Continue

Digging myself in deep with daydreaming

Started this discussion. Last reply by Jessica Ballantyne Feb 17. 2 Replies

Unsure if I was foolish towards life. I'm a neurodivergent who is naturally a daydreamer from birth. I always wanted a life of friends and relationships that never was. Well, I seem to affect people…Continue

MD and Real Life's responses

Started this discussion. Last reply by The1andonlyAbber Feb 20. 5 Replies

Has maladaptive daydreaming gave you so much hope and assures you things. But real life keeps biting back you in the ass—like fuck? It throws you off guard to an extent you're mad at yourself for…Continue

Coping

Started this discussion. Last reply by Jessica Ballantyne Feb 20. 6 Replies

I used to cope with my loneliness by doing MD—but it strikes me, if I hadn't started MD and learned to socialize like people do, even if it means watching them, I probably would've been a happier…Continue

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Verbal Skills

I was a maladaptive daydreamer all my life, but it got overpowering starting at 12. I am shocked at how I didn't grow adjusted to my worldly environment and social situations. When I was floundering in other fictional worlds, I wasn't learning to excelerate my volcabulary, speech, and social interaction skills, but also my world perception, such as politics, religion, history, culture, and economics. Eventually, I grew up sounding like an idiot with no brain. Truly I'm a smart, creative, and…See More
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Jessica Ballantyne posted a discussion

Pretending to be other people

Back in secondary school, my English teacher noticed how extremely quiet I was sitting there, not taking part in everybody's conversations. At some point I took part in a curling club, she volunteered to take me home after the game. She drove me to my house, but before I got out, she wanted to have a conversation with me about my loss of verbal skills. She told me a story of herself in high school, she was very shy and quiet, didn't want to speak up in class, but she was gifted at poetry and…See More
Apr 27
Jessica Ballantyne commented on F J's blog post Marriage/relationship
"I must bring this up. The past 14 years, I struggled to excel in my career, so I lived at home a lot. At breakfast time, I would grab my coffee and muffin/bagel. I would go into my head, and ponder off. My mom always rambled about news, politics,…"
Apr 21
Jessica Ballantyne commented on F J's blog post Marriage/relationship
"I have a form of Asperger syndrome, and the way I act out, it appears like I'm not paying attention with no care, so it gives off a message to others that I'm wondering. It seems as if they can see right through me, and just know that…"
Apr 21
Jessica Ballantyne commented on F J's blog post Marriage/relationship
"How do you conceal MD so well? I just can't do that. I didn't tell my mom at all. She just sensed it, because I acted so stupidly one day, and it made her question. I've had all sorts of people read it off me, because my actions were…"
Apr 21
Jessica Ballantyne commented on F J's blog post Marriage/relationship
"I've never been in a relationship or married. I could tell the person I used to be an MD'er, it started out when I was a kid, I but learned it was the wrong thing to do, so I stopped. Still, my mom knows all about it, and will probably…"
Apr 20
Jessica Ballantyne replied to trapmoneyslim's discussion I am going to quit MD for good.
"..Then quit for good. "
Apr 20
Jessica Ballantyne replied to farrahfawn's discussion utilizing daydreams for good?
"I don't speak German. If I daydreamed while I studied, I wouldn't have passed. I need to absorb information properly. "
Apr 15
Jessica Ballantyne replied to farrahfawn's discussion utilizing daydreams for good?
"Same with me. It does become a big problem when I'm in stressful situations and have to focus. My muscles think and seize, and I can't act up, then my MD gets out of control. "
Apr 15
Jessica Ballantyne replied to trapmoneyslim's discussion I am going to quit MD for good.
"HI, I keep on getting your daily routines in my email. Is there a way to dismiss myself in this blog. "
Apr 9
Jessica Ballantyne replied to trapmoneyslim's discussion I am going to quit MD for good.
"How's progress? I see you keep a daily log. "
Apr 4
Jessica Ballantyne replied to farrahfawn's discussion utilizing daydreams for good?
"I feel like people "shut me out" because I don't talk so much, and interact with them properly. I don't realize that I burn them up.Then they acknowledge this is who I am, and it ruins our bond. Then they get all mean and we…"
Apr 2
Jessica Ballantyne replied to Sara's discussion Symptoms after daydreaming
"Yeah, my MD is better, but it did something to my body. I didn't reconcile that I spent 14 years slumped over a desk at my computer, working online. It is hell rolling out of bed in the morning. I get severe sleep inertia that lasts for hours.…"
Apr 1
Jessica Ballantyne replied to trapmoneyslim's discussion I am going to quit MD for good.
"I do feel MD just did me damage, over any good. "
Mar 29
Jessica Ballantyne replied to trapmoneyslim's discussion I am going to quit MD for good.
"How I am working on the floor is starting to worry me. I'm not receptive, vigilant and sharp as a thistle according to what is around me and in front of me. Somebody once called me a "zoner." I'm afraid somebody is going to…"
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Verbal Skills

Posted on May 2, 2024 at 8:01pm 0 Comments

I was a maladaptive daydreamer all my life, but it got overpowering starting at 12. I am shocked at how I didn't grow adjusted to my worldly environment and social situations. When I was floundering in other fictional worlds, I wasn't learning to excelerate my volcabulary, speech, and social interaction skills, but also my world perception, such as politics, religion, history, culture, and economics. Eventually, I grew up sounding like an idiot with no brain. Truly I'm a smart,…

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Outside my head

Posted on June 4, 2021 at 1:26pm 990 Comments

This is going to sound annoying. Living in a town for 29 years, all I ever heard by others is that I'm so quiet. They literally couldn't get a word out of me. I was too busy daydreaming in my head to realize how I looked on the outside. I actually never knew it made me look stupid. Non-family can be vigorous that way. I always used MD as a way to escape my frustrations, but it did me more harm that good, so I had to quit. It was the best decision I made. 



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Friends are not from Dreams

Posted on May 18, 2021 at 4:47pm 10 Comments

I spent my whole life looking forward to friends and relationships, and this actually could've happened, if I wasn't living on another planet. When I was a kid, I used to ponder around my room and other parts of the house, imagining situations of how I could meet young people in my area. I'd stand in our shady family office, looking at drawings and poetry, wishing that friends would suddenly pop out of nowhere and say hi. All I had to do was talk to my classmates, get their phone…

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In a Maze

Posted on April 19, 2021 at 4:40pm 4 Comments

When I was doing MD, I thought it was awesome. It lulled me into complacency and I'd spend hours staring away into a fuge, with glowing hopes things will eventually go my way. Unfortunately, it dug me into a deeper hole. Nobody knew my satisfaction as I have, but they didn't understand why my eyes had a distant stare, why I moved funny, didn't talk much and why I almost wasn't ever listening. It clearly proved to them that I was in another world. To myself, I believed I can do…

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At 11:40pm on March 21, 2021, Sakshee Dhumal said…

Hey do you mind if I ask what kinda job do you do Rn? I'm still a student and I've always wondered what people like us, who have MD, do when they grow up.

At 12:55pm on February 22, 2021, Varya said…
Hi. You can write to me as well, just in case. You seem like a nice and interesting person. varvaraamarantha@gmail.com
At 5:22pm on February 15, 2021, Raul said…
hi, if you want to talk, this is my email, i can hear you, talk to a person who goes through the same situation helps. raulvasconcelosb@gmail.com
 
 
 

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