Alright, so...here's the deal. I know that there is the "idealized self" aspect to MD, but have you ever had...14 different versions of yourself? Kind of like you make characters, but well, with yourself I guess. The thing was, that the other versions of myself were never really...created by me. They kind of just...appeared. Although this is also how I get most of my characters...you know, they kind of just...appear. What different between the…

On Saturday Bryn and I were on the tube returning home after going out for lunch. There was a young boy sitting across from us with his grandmother. After about five minutes of him staring at us, he got up and sat beside me. He introduced himself as Isaac and asked where we were going. I told him we were going home, and he responded by saying his grandmother was taking him to the Museum of Natural History to see the dinosaurs. I talked with him for a while and he asked if I could go with him…

This is something that has been bugging me for a while now.... But, just to be clear before I start, not ALL of my friends have reacted in these ways. I've been trying to be more open about this with my closest friends, and have even begun outright telling some of them. So far, the overwhelming reaction to my explanation of what MD is?

"Oh, really?? I think I have that, too!!"

At first, every single time, I get very…

Okay, so I hope I'm not the only one, but I can only daydream about real people. Sometimes minor characters change, but for over 2 years, I have daydreamed about the same two people's relationship. They broke up over a year ago. I don't really want to say who, but I feel like I kind of have to to explain this... I'll just say they are on YouTube, if anyone watches vloggers or whatever... I used to daydream about others, and they may sometimes change a little, but I have become so attached to…

Hey, guys... This is going to wind up being more of a personal vent than any sort of productive conversation starter.... Just warning prospective readers ahead.

Well, let's start in the present, shall we? I'm currently behind on more than half of my work in my college courses, most of which have to do with writing, one of the loves of my life. I'm constantly fading in and out of my relationships with others, sometimes not answering people's texts/phone calls for days at a time…

it's been awhile since i last posted!

there some reasons why i haven't been on this site as much, the biggest one being that i'm kind of over the whole "wow i have a disorder, i need to find out everything about it" thing. i've came on here and asked all my questions in my blog posts, i've gotten my answers, and i'm not really as curious about how other people deal with MD.

if you forgot, i'm a MD-er in high school and i have had MD since i was 9. i prefer to pace or lie down…

Hi,

Havent blogged before but here goes.

Ive just started at university doing geology and just dont have time to daydream anymore. So ive decided to stop completely for at least a month to see if I can convince myself I dont need to do it anymore. This is my secont attempt at this, last time I lasted 13 days before breaking, this time is different. I have stripped my room of epic posters with people on them, only maps and abstract images remaining and have put signs up…

i have this character who used to be the main point of my daydream. like, she was my "main" character for like, 3 years. last couple of years though i focused more on her friend and her friends, so i hardly ever daydream about that character anymore. like, she makes an appearance occasionally, but it isnt the same. I cant even daydream about her anymore as much because im too into my new daydream. but then i notice i have alot of characters that i forgot existed.  i feel like i should…

Today I finally got the guts to read one of the last issues in a  big trigger for me. There will be no more of this series which made me feel incredibly bitter sweet. I loved that manga to death and to see it end like that made me realize so much. All good things do come to and end. I have gone already deleted that world but still go back and forth every once in a while and currently can't take my current world. The manga left of on a bitter sweet cliff hanger only making me sadder. It got…

My main problem is that I am not 100% confident in myself. Some moments I feel okay- but many others I do not feel confident. I pick myself apart and constantly see every flaw. It's getting really old. When I MD, its a way to reassure myself and feel confident. I wish that I could quit looking in the mirror obsessively. I wish I would quit comparing myself to others. It's like I know that I am being too hard on myself and I don't have much room to complain. But I still obsess over…

Just thinking out loud here. I was thinking (trying to stave off falling into a deep daydream plot) about the different characters in my DDs. What if they all were brought together, like a reunion.  I have different character sets, for different types of DDs. Certain ones only in the future dreams, some from different settings in the past. They would all be dressed very differently based on their time frame. I picture the scene from Bill and Ted's excellent adventure where all the historical…

I've just recently learned about this, but I am positive I have it, and have since as long as I can remember. I cannot stop. I do it constantly, and its starting to affect my grades. I have great friends and parents, and have had no trauma that could have triggered it, but I just find life sort of... dull. Nothing exciting ever happens to me. I don't enjoy talking to my friends anymore, I'd rather go off into my world and just daydream. I don't even dream about myself... I don't want…

Hello there, everyone.

I am Jennifer, and I am 15 years old, (for those of you who are new) and I would like to share a poem I wrote about living with MD. I don't know if you'll be able to relate to this because it's pretty much based on personal, inner feelings about my case of MD, and how it feels to know I live with something considered a mental disorder. This…

i know alot of people have said they've been in love with a character, but have you ever had love for a child in your daydream?

im not in my daydream, but my characters (in the future) have children and i daydream about their relationships with them often.

i dont know, i love them alot (in a parent way or like a sibling, not a pedo way LOL) 

Like, im 17 and i dont have kids or anything but i feel like i know what its like to be a parent

i just want to play with them ahhh…

It seems a crazy thing to say. But still, if you look at it on another way it is the only intelligent thing to think. Don’t misunderstand me I don’t think I am Jesus or James Bond and I will save the word. I just know I can make a difference.

I decided for some years ago that if I can’t change the world I can change myself. But if I manage to change myself, I will have changed the word. And I did, I mean, I’m still MDD, I have many issues but it’s a lifelong project, but I keep…

“Suffering is justified as soon as it becomes the raw material of beauty.”

~Jean-Paul Sartre

Edgar Allan Poe and Vincent van Gogh; two coincidentally rhyming names that will weather history, signed upon the fantastic works of art by the men who bore them. It was…

I just can't fight anymore. I don't want to try. MD has finally took a real toll on me. Laid in bed late DDing, so heavy today. Barely noticed hubby kissing me goodby as he left. I feel like a robot, get in the car start the mindless drive. Lost in the DD world, bright morning sun blinding through the window. Mind skipping around, road, work, DD story line, road, sky, sun, DD character talking to me, work, time- I'm late, etc, etc, then WHOMP! what was that? where am I? What just…