The definition of maladaptive daydreaming often always highlights, the fact, that those daydreaming are aware they are daydreaming, and are aware of their external environment. Now I find that sometimes I go so deep into my dds that I am am not aware of the lost time, when I begun to lose time, or what has happened around me.  I can get up leave the living room to go to the kitchen ( a very short walk), next thing I know I'll be staring inside the fridge wondering how I got there and why I…

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Hey! It is Machelle here. I need a name for a character. They are hard to name! I have six that are regulars.

Holli

Main character, the bottom of the "a" group. Also supposed to be me.

Lindsey

Holli's best friend. She is the top of the "a" group. She stands up for holli a bit too much. She gets in lots of fights with rachel.

Percy

The middle of the "a" group, he is often picked on by jack, likes jokes. He starts most of the fights, the others know…

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Twas a terrible night.

So I've been working on my book for almost a year now, which means I've essentially locked myself up in a room. My MDD is not a problem from me anymore, it gets used up in creating the work, but I can't really say that all of it is positive.

Unable or unwilling to writing for some days, I either look up inane stuff on internet on my phone or I just keep thinking about the conversations I heard during week, and then some related MDD, but almost…

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My brain does this thing where it likes to take my life's goodness and connect it via an intricate mental spiderweb to sin, evil, and damnation.  At least, that's the way I view it some of the time.  The rest of the time, I view it as my brain Discovering The Truth saving me from possible destruction.  Either way, it's a hard way to live.  The world has a tendency to grow smaller when your brain's favorite hobby is "Find the Contaminating Evil in Life!" 



It seems to get worse when…

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Hi, Everyone.

I know I've been MIA for a while, but I'm trying to get back on more because I really do care about all of you and this site.  I've had some health issues that have left me no good for anything but whining and posting sarcastic comments on Facebook, not exactly helpful for here.

Here are the blah-blah details you can skip over about where I've been.

I've had GERD for many  years.  Meds did little to help, and diet did nothing.  I had…

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I found this page a month ago, And it seems everybody on this page hates having MDD.

But I enjoy being able to make up stories in my head, and being able to attach myself to the characters that I make up.

Not many people have the ability to do this, and I see it more as a unique gift than a curse.

Does anybody else feel this way? other than me?

And for the ones who struggle so much with MDD, why is it so difficult for you? Why don't you like…

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So I haven’t been on here for a while, no one probably noticed, but here’s a bit of an explanation for those of you who do care. Just over a year ago I accepted a teaching job on the other side of Canada. It’s in the north and in an isolated community. I am a 4-5 hr drive to a grocery store that is bigger than my classroom and I don’t have to spend a fortune on milk. Two hours of that drive is on gravel roads. Two weeks into teaching a student brought me a cat at school because her mother…

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Since finding this site, i have taken brief breaks from my DD to consider what is causing it. Here is what I think:

1. Self rejection: I day dream because I feel that all the important people in my life reject me as I really am and instead of coping with it, I just accept their assessment of me and reject myself. It is painful enough to have others reject me, but then rejecting self, yikes.

2. Feeling alone: Life is hard and I think I could have the skills to live differently and make… Continue

A couple years ago I went through an intense period of day dreaming unlike anything I had done in the past. up until then I thought a little day dreaming was healthy and it enhanced my creativity. But this was different, it consumed my thoughts 24 / 7. I still went to work but my day dream continued all day even there. I couldn't wait to go to lunch so I could spend every minutes enhancing and perfecting my 'relationships' while I sat alone in the car. I knew I was in a lot of emotional pain… Continue

I'm a strong introvert. As far as I can tell, introverts do have a tendency to have a non-addictive fantasy world. (I only consider it MD when it's addictive.)

I'm also an insomniac, I take a long time to fall asleep (for me personally it's usually 1-2.5 hours)

Due to my insomia, I spent most of my life tired. Although for the past month I admittedly have been really bad in regards to getting enough sleep, I've had many periods of time this year wher I have been getting enough…

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21 one days, i have gone now without daydreaming. they say that 21 is the magic number, 3 weeks is what it takes to break a habit. i saw this day as a glorious golden day when all my problems would just disappear. silly i know. maladaptive daydreaming is not a habit, its an addiction. I still have a long journey ahead of me if i really want to stop. I'm getting used to it though and i have hope for the future. I've tried to stop before but never made it this far. i feel stronger that ever…

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