I was told to try writing about my MD and I am not sure if it will be helpful but I will try all the same, I will warn everyone that I am a terrible speller :)

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I had to keep running, I knew he wasn't far behind. The sewage smelled terrible and the tunnel was dark, all I could hear was my breathing and the pounding of my footsteps on the wet ground. my heart raced, I had to make it stop he would hear my heartbeat. The gun was still in my hand and the…

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Day dreaming is a method mind used to run away from all fears and problems. I think it's the strongest addiction which spoils a man's most precious time. But this energy produced from mind can convert into productive purposes. For ex. innovative ideas and  spectacular designs made by  the mankind are the outcome of some crazy minds. In my personal experience I can say it may disrupt the friendly relation to the people around us. That we need to have a control over…

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His name was Blackie (or Blackey as my sister spelled it) and he was one of my best friends. I'm not sure how I'm ever going to get over his death or if I'll be able to connect/love another pet as much as I did him.

He had surgery a month ago to remove bladder stones but began deteriorating the last two weeks. After going to the vet three days ago and being told his symptoms were "normal," we decided to take him again Tuesday morning. We were then told that this whole time he had…

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This is my first day talking about myself and my condition online and I hope whoever reads this will appreciate the context and be respectful. In short I do daydream often and I talk to myself frequently while pacing back and forth, however if I am not intereacting with someone I will mummble to myself/ talk to myself while i am walking to my car or on my way to class. I know that they are not real, and If i am by myself I tend to indulge in my fantasy. I keep telling myself I should just…

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Does anyone roleplay? 

I do, and when I do it feels like I let the characters take over and watch them do their thing, so it's a bit more intense for me.

I'm 13 and I have recently found out about MDD. I think I could have it, but I am not certain. I hope someone can tell me wether I have it or not.

I daydream about 1 hour a day, though it depends on how I'm feeling and what I'm doing. In my daydream, the characters and the plot are taken out of a book, even though I've changed the plot a bit and developed the characters. I am emotionally attached to the characters, and I need them in my life.

I don't rock or pace while I daydream, but… Continue

I've been maladaptive daydreaming since as early as I can remember, at least since fifth grade, probably earlier. I never knew that it had a name until I happened across the term a couple months ago. I was immediately intrigued and researched everything I could on it. There's so much that I've read so far that just coincides exactly with what I've been feeling my whole life. I always assumed that there were other people out there somewhere in the world that struggled with this too, but I…

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I feel like I've been talking a lot lately and that's something I don't usually do, but I found something out today.

A few months ago my sister (17 years old) mentioned that she thinks she might have Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) and I kind of dismissed it. Earlier today I brought it up again because she had one of her mood swings. I researched the disorder a bit and found out that she needs counseling right away or else her chances of a full recovery will drop from…

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These so-called regular people, the ones who do not daydream so much. What do they think about all day. I can't imagine. I've only ever had my daydreams. They have always been there 

It is difficult to imagine processing a life event (big or small) without projecting it to a made up character, weaving it into the rich tapestry of their made-up lives.

It's not all them, I can quieten them if I really need to. Sometimes it's hard and the biggest disruption is when trying to…

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This isn't much of a blog post in my opinion, but I just want to vent.

I do extemporaneous public speaking competitions for FFA at my school. That kinf of public speaking is where you have a few minutes to prepare a speech out of a little but of info. The reason I  put myself, a complete introvert, into this position, was because my idealized self is a public speaker. And a very famous public speak at that. Because in my head I am able to perfect those speeches, it causes me…

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I don't have any friends nor acquaintances. I honestly don't know if it's a result of maladaptive daydreaming or the cause of maladaptive daydreaming, but most likely a mix of both. Trying to stop daydreaming is hard cause I realize how lonely I am then daydream to feel better. The good thing is I'm more mindful of my daydreams even though I still don't have full control of them. I basically go through life alone living in my head. If I'm not daydreaming, then I am thinking. 

CURSE OF THE IMAGINATION

WRITTEN ON  7/5/17 AT 4:12 PM

I was on the verge of greatness,

but then the greatest catastrophe,

even the consequence of entropy.

My passion became a cold fire,

my resolve…

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solitude is addicting. Once you see how peaceful it is you don't want to be around people anymore.

my characters have taken on a life of their own and can have full convesations with me in my head (no avatar, just them talking directly to where my "eyes" would be)

they are emotive and their facial expressions change reacting directly to what i say

i view them in this space reserved specially for them that i call the realm (where they move about kind of like sims that i cant control)

it's very solid and not at all daydream-like and i can see it by…

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Im currently living in NZ and am interested to know if there are any local groups or the like for MDD?

There are 4 autonomic responses to stress.  Fight and flight which are sympathetic and freeze and disassociate which are parasympathetic.  I believe that MD is an out of control parasympathetic dis-associative response.  If anyone in interested in pursuing this further, respond to this post and I will give you some tools to begin unwinding the response.

A rich inner world has always been a factor in my life but a story did not start to form until I was 7. A line was spoken in a TV show that sparked something in me that has never died.  I don't remember the TV show or the line. It was just part of some random dramatic scene in a teen drama my aunt was engrossed in.

I wonder how the actor would feel knowing what a profound effect that line had on my life. Pride or maybe pity.  I can't imagine because I don't even know how I'm supposed…

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Hello!

So, a lot of the articles I've read on how to cope with/cure MDD mention that knowing what caused your MDD and coming to terms with it is imperative to gaining control over your daydreams.



Except, according to stories I've been told by my parents, I've been doing this ever since I was around three years old. They told me stories about me spinning like a top endlessly, for hours on end, while watching a movie or listening to music. My methods evolved, I pace now rather… Continue