hi. maybe none of you know who i am or remember me but i used to be really active on this website a few years ago. i stopped because it became really slow but it seems to be that theres alot of new members here now, thats cool. I mostly just post my thoughts and stuff on my blog, you can check it out here:



http://kellyreinhart.tumblr.com/



Ive had this blog for a few years and i jsut kinda write my thoughts and personal stuff…

sorry yall i havent really been on here lately. 

alot of the posts are pretty generic and im focusing more on my own blog

but heres some sketches of some characters ive done recently.

maybe you guys will like them

;p…

i read on a post here about making your characters imvu.....

iive always seen ads for imvu but i thought it was a stupid virus thing so i never paid attention to it. but it isnt,so i decided i would play around with all the clothes and faces and stuff and it was kinda fun...im not gonna actually play and talk to people or anything





so i made one of my characters lol this is how it turned out …

i am so awkward. i cant handle situations. I just cant. i really try and i can never handle soical situations.

I got a job recently (i only think i got the job because he pretty much hired me n the spot and didnt interview me and saw how awkward i am)



im a food runner at a restaurant, so i bring food to the tables. I have to talk to the peoplwe and say what the food is. i was kind of scared at first but i started feeling really good about it ad thought i was doing a good job.…

do you ever just daydream so much in one day, that you cant do it anymroe and your head feels weird and youre trying to daydream but its difficult??? sometimes my head hurts or my jaw hurts if i daydream too much (is that weird?) im having the feeling right now. 

just some thoughts

i havent been on here in a long time. theres a lot more members since the last time i checked lol! Im in college now and have to go to class in 2 minutes so I just wanted to say...hi c;



I have been trying trying to see md as a hobby, is that weird? idk im like, writing little things down that are important about it, im trying make more like...an activity? idk, to do after im done homework...so i dont fail. cause in high school it distracted me alot and i didnt do so well. i still…

I'd really appreciate if someone listened. No one ever listens to me.



Lately everythings so messed up. i dont know.



My parents bother me SO MUCH. well, my mom. Lately, everything she does annoys me. She treats me like a baby, always talks in stupid voices to make me laugh but its not funny. I hate it, i really do. sometimes ill say like "can you please stop treating me like im 5? its so annoying. treat me like im an adult please." and she'll say like "OHHHHHH…

my bf was really depressed the other day. I dont really want to say why but he kept saying "i wish i was more like you. you're so normal."



HA.



so i decided to tell him about my md to show him how not normal I am. He was actually really interested and wanted to know more about it and my daydream and characters. He said it wasnt weird at all, and he thinks its cool that i have an escape from reality like that. I went through my sketchbook with him (hes seen it before but now…

i saw a counsellor today to talk about stuff.

We discussed self esteem, anxiety, depression,daydreaming, etc.



to explain md I  let her read that little blurb about md on the home page of wildminds. She wasnt shocked freaked out and said i was normal. She said That I have social anxiety and self esteem issues and my way of coping with it is daydreaming. She says next time i see…

im seeing a counsellor or therapist or whatever tommorow. My moms making me go because a month ago i had a break down and said i hated myself wanted to kill myself. heh. 

I know what I want to say about that, how should i bring up md? How should I tell her? How do I explain without her thinking its schizophrenia?  should I show her pictures ive drawn or posts from this site? 

admit it.  you've had numerous sex scenes in your daydream, I do.



Though I find it awkward and creepy, I feel like im just....watching. Some characters have more sex scenes than others, some characters I just dont want to see that. Im not in my own daydream so i dont like, watch myself have sex with someone (oh god) there just 2 characters having sex and ya sometimes i feel weird .When i was younger i was paranoid people could read my mind and see im thinking about my…

a picture i drew

of two of my characters

just before they start dating and stuff

kinda cheesy but hey

i told myself i wouldnt post every picture I draw of characters cause I dont wanna spam the site with my stufff but i had to share this cause theyre so cute…

Often when I daydream I use atmospheres im familiar with for the settings. for example, one of my characters house is the exact same as my aunts house. one of my characters has the same house as my next door neighbour. and the school they go to looks exactly like mine. I guess its difficult for me to make up my own room or house and remember exactly how I made it everytime. I mean like, its its a bedroom or something they'll have different furniture,wall paint, etc but the its the same…

actually like daydreaming or does everyone just want to stop it?
cause everytime i come on here now its just posts about trying to quit daydreaming or what not and i like reading the postive ones and ones about people daydreams and characters
daydreaming is distracting but honestly life would be so boring without it, im bored half of the time already, id be SOOOOOOOOOO bored if i didnt have md cause what would i always think about?

okay so you know how i keep saying im gonna write my daydream into a book? yeah i started that up again. for reasons certain reasons i wanna change one of the characters first names

ok his names aaron larkin should I change it to;



talon

skyler

bradley

austin

luke





see the character looks like aaron samuels from mean girls kinda- thats why i named him aaron( if for some strange odd reason you havent seen mean girls, he looks like this…

when some of you say you use characters from shows/movies, do you mean the actual character or what.



for example.......edward cullen from twilight, lets say.



do you actually daydream about edward cullen? and put different characters into one daydream or something? or are you just using robert pattinsons body for your character and completely changing his personality/name/ and what not



i dont know, i get confused with that.



because i may use people from…

ok, everytime id try to draw my characters they'd look funny or they wouldnt look like them...

i was drawing in my sketchbook the other day and i started the draw them- and it actually looked like them for once

like, this actually looks ALOT like them. its really accurate. this is like a cartoon version of them but it looks JUST LIKE THEM



i might of went…

just say to yourself 

"OH MY GOD ALL MY CHARACTERS ARE SO PERFECT THEYRE SO CUTE AND LOVELY AND AW THEIR KIDS THEIR SO CUTE AND OMG THEIR LIVES EVERYTHING WORKS SO WELL IF SOMEONE KNEW THIS STORY THEY'D TOTALLY WANT TO READ IT THATS HOW AWESOME THIS DAYDREAM IS IM A FREAKIN GENUIS I LOVE ALL OF YOU I WANT TO KISS YOUR NOSES AW AW AWWWW YOUR PERSONALITIES ARE SO PERFECT AND AW YOUR IMPERFECTIONS ARE PERFECT WHY CANT YOU BE REAL AND HANG OUT WITH ME BE MY FRIENDS YOURE THE AWESOMEST I…

i dont do this anymore, but when i was younger, as a source for character apperances i would use cartoons instead of celebrities. From that i would try to picture them looking like people.

i have a feeling no one did this, but  was just thinking about it and it made me laugh a bit.

mostly because the characters i had were so random. I had dash from the incredibles, elroy from the jetsons, red from the movie hoodwinked, and i based a character off of a cartoon version of a doll from…

so ive been trying to write my daydream as a book. I keep starting and i get really into it- then i get embarrassed and dont look at it for months, then i start again. My writers craft teacher made us listen to him talk the whole class about how he got a book published and what he went through and it kind of got me motivated to start writing it again. I always thought maybe one dy it could be published if i actually finished it and it turned out well but it looks a lot harder then it looks…