Where wild minds come to rest
i am so awkward. i cant handle situations. I just cant. i really try and i can never handle soical situations.
I got a job recently (i only think i got the job because he pretty much hired me n the spot and didnt interview me and saw how awkward i am)
im a food runner at a restaurant, so i bring food to the tables. I have to talk to the peoplwe and say what the food is. i was kind of scared at first but i started feeling really good about it ad thought i was doing a good job. that was the first time i felt confident in a while. the next sday my boss said to me " are you telling people what their orders are? some people are asking. i know youre so so shy, but you gotta speak up"
i felt really upset because thought I was doing a good job but apperently not.
and one day i walked past my boss and so i smiled at him and he said "wow finally i got a smile out of you"
i get that ALL THE TIME. i dont know what to do! NO ONE I KNOW JUST SMILES ALL THE TIME! not even him. not anyone who says that. but everyone always says to me "why dont you smile?" I HATE IT SO MUCH.
theres so much more things going on that i could write about but you probably dont really care
and i was thinking about all this stuff like an hour ago and i started to cry,
but i started daydreaming for some reason and i stopped crying and daydreamed for 10 minutes
and then i snapped back into reality and feel better
hmm i dont even know what im trying to say
i just hate situations and i wish i could daydream forever and stay in my room
I have to use fictional characters of my imagination to make me feel better
ill never be able to be a normal person :(
thats exactly how i feel. i dont feel like a normal person...
idk ive just been really depressed and stressed lately and daydreaming is the only thing i care about because it makes me feel like i can be myself
i dont know...