I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder 6 years ago when I was nineteen. It was shortly after that that I started losing myself into daydreams. I was always an imaginative child but it was usually just with ordinary childhood games like house, Barbies, or games that children play together, with the exception of a "sort of" imaginary friend that I had when I was around three years old. She wasn't really a friend, she was another little girl that I spun around and turned into. Interesting…

When I first found out I had MD a few years ago, I was incredibly pissed off and upset. I felt like I was literally daydreaming my whole life away. 

I don't really know what happened since then and now, but I've come to realize that my MD has been a good thing. Whenever I get upset, I daydream for an hour or so and afterwards I feel so much more refreshed, happy, and energized for the rest of my day. 

Whenever I feel restless or stressed out, my daydreams have honestly been…

I start daydreaming as soon as i wake up most mornings. it's like i go through periods of being able to go right back to sleep after waking up to not being able to go back to sleep after waking up.

A week ago i would go to bed at 12 midnight and sleep until 7am-7:30am. And then my mom had to go to work around 7am so she'd be up at 6:30am  and she'd wake me up with all the noise she made. 

now its like i cant even sleep until 7am. i keep waking up at 6:30am-ish…

Been daydreaming about being put in a mental hospital. I was so happy to go. I felt like I could finally rest, be safe. Very strange.

Hello everyone, I have an interesting question that I am not sure if anyone has found this to be true: but is DD a genetic problem? Recently I spoke to my mother about  this issue to come to find that not only she, but just about all of my siblings have DD as well. My youngest brother has it very badly, to the point where he can be in public and clearly is in another world, laughing to himself and moving his mouth silently. It is very embarrassing. However, according to my motehr, even my…

Gonna go see my drug dealer (psychiatrist) tomorrow.

Have to drive into Seattle.....(insert cuss words here)

The drivers are maniacs, the pedestrians are suicidal, and the bicyclists are obnoxious. The traffic lights are next to the crosswalk signs and not hung over the intersection like the rest of the civilized world.

I'll be showing up with elevated blood pressure and enough anxiety to drop a horse.

But, that's what I gotta do to work with a doctor who takes his job…

I don't know what it's like for anyone else, but in my other-worldly adventures, the same types of personality types show up again and again.

For example, in a "romantic" scenario, the male character is always, in some way emotionally unavailable. Even if they're relatively normal in  the beginning of the tale I usually find a way to screw them up!

"And why is this?" asks my (jokingly) named Voice of Reason.

I go all Freudian and answer myself - "Probably because I had…

Go on and break this castle of glass. Burn it down and burn it fast. It doesn't matter anyway, because every thing falls and every thing breaks. Even the bird that flies above, can be shot down with just one gun.

I wrote this little bit last night and even after morning broke, it still rang true.  I should have checked myself into a hospital or something, because right now I feel just as hopeless as I did before. The headache doesn't help.

I feel like I can't trust anyone…

Hello Fellows.

I'm putting my intro in a blog rather than spam the boards with it.

So.

I'm mostly a girl, 23 years old.

Mild Trigger warning- mentions of abuse and self-destruction

I remember daydreaming since I was very little.  I remember lying in bed and pretending I was a power ranger (:P) who was hurt and required the nurturing of the others.  Many of my more involved daydreams still have this theme (though more sophisticated now).  I…

I've just joined the network today after searching for answers for years. I have been intensely DD for over a decade now and never knew that it was a "thing". When I was younger, I always kind of assumed that everyone else had a second (or third or fourth) life that they lived inside their heads. It wasn't until high school, when I mentioned it to a close friend, that I realized how unusual it is to constantly and vividly DD. I just thought everyone lived a thousand different…

Today I saw on TV a spokesman of a German ministry, who has the same first and last name as my main daydream-character. These are not unusual names, but I never saw a person with these two names. It felt so weird. It felt like a part of my dreamworld came to real life.

I promised my self I'd write in my blog. I have adjusted to my new meds and the cloud (MD) is once again washing over my brain and I'm having trouble just writing in my iPod journal.

It seems every time I get put on a new psychotropic drug I snap out of Electric Larry Land....but only for a 2 to 3 weeks. Then it comes back. Slowly at first...starting with the ruminations, then moving to  night time DD's, then to work DD's and then before I know it I'm chugging a pot and a half of…

I'm not sure how many of you also suffer from compulsive rapid cycle MD episodes, when over a period of days or over a course of a week your MD's are more frequent and obsessively intense. When I am caught up in one of those cycles I have great difficulty trying to break out of the loop.

I know that music is a prominent trigger for MD, but I recently found a track called "weightless" by Marconi Union, its 8 minutes long…