Yesterday I had another appointment with my Therapist. I've been going to her for my daydreaming for a few months but this session was more disheartening than others. I want to switch therapists but I have no idea who in the area has experience. She has helped me but the feelings of frustration are increasing especially with her saying that she "isn't seeing the effort needed."

During the first few sessions I knew things were going to be difficult. She mentioned in these sessions she…

I am the kind of person that takes personality tests. All the time. Mostly just for fun. Or sometimes to prove something to someone. I am very self aware, largely in part to the fact that I have hundreds of different characters in my head and because my fantasy and reality tend to blur, I've learned to be hyper aware of who I am. I am very confident in knowing myself.

Anyway.

I thought it would be fun to experiment with some of these personality tests. I started…

Hey everyone! I'm back! I started school so I've been very busy lately, with all the schoolwork and field hockey... so I've actually been in a steady relationship with Grady (I believe I mentioned him in a previous post) since August 31st so there's yet another thing to add onto my stress. It's been hard to juggle a social life as well as this academic stuff, and to make things even more complicated, I'm on math team and in another club called Captains Club. This club has already…

I'm broke now. Used to work, made enough$ to pay my house mortgage plus. But now I'm on USA disability for mental illness. Angry. Super anger. My birth father is a pedophile, molested me from the ages 2 -15. My mother allowed it. I'm considering becoming a hitman, whacking pedophiles, ridding the planet of abusers. For cash. 2 pay off my house note

It's been a while since I've posted here, though I've been lurking every now and then. Can you believe I've been using this site for 6 years?

Anyway, I'm now 21 years old, and my daydreaming has almost entirely stopped---I can no longer focus on the world around me, and I DEFINITELY can't focus on daydreams for hours at a time anymore. I still have the desire to return to my daydream world, but it just doesn't happen. I lack the mental energy.

The fogginess in my mind and short…

I just wanted to pour out my thoughts here. It's just that daydreaming really has drained my mental capacity and motivation. Sometimes, when I'm in conversations, my attention span really doesn't cooperate with me no matter how much resistance I put in. When I'm trying to follow instructions, I literally don't remember what each step is right after reading them. The worst part is that I'm trying to get good grades on my last year of high school and it's very difficult to…

Hi everyone, I’m so sorry I have no idea how this website works yet or who’s going to see this but I just wanted to say thank you to you all! I’ve been feeling so isolated and lonely,  but after finding this site with so many people like me it just makes me beyond happy and so relieved- it really has changed my life just from reading a couple of your stories:) thank you so much for existing xx

I am a maladaptive daydreamer, like everyone else on this site.  It's something that I've done most of my life that Ii'm consciously aware of.  I'm not sure why but I think that it started partly as something to do and keep me entertained during boring periods during whatever day to day activities but I think in part it's also a 'coping mechanism' for stressful or unpleasant events and I think that it's also down to my natural 'wiring' that I engaged with and…

Wow, you all probably thought I left permanently or something! It's been nearly a month I guess. A lot of stuff has happened in my life. For the first time ever, I think I have fallen out of love. Things between Sam and me have just gotten a little... distant. He hasn't been communicating with me quite as often, which leads me to ultimately not thinking about him more and more. We just started talking again today. Today, of all days! My post is going to be mainly about the daydreams/dreams…

hey there, Im kinda new here or at least Ive never posted anything but Ive been feeling quite anxious recently so Ill share a little bit of my worries in this blog post. okay so I just finished high school successfully which suprised me the most, I thought id at least get one bad grade but my grades were the opposite of that. so other than having a mental breakdown and skipping a useless exam, my senior year went by well...academically. Because of that I was accepted into a med school that I…

hey there, Im kind new here or at least Ive never posted anything but Ive been feeling quite anxious recently so Ill share a little bit of my worries in this blog post. okay so I just finished high school successfully which suprised me the most, I thought id at least get one bad grade but my grades were the opposite of that, so other than having a mental breakdown and skipping a useless exam my senior year went by well...academically. Because of that I was…

I literally spent nearly 20 years day dreaming about needing a boyfriend, but just today, I feel that was a scary thing to do.

I don't know many people who've done this! They basically just payed attention to others and got the partner they wanted, in a super outgoing manner. I wonder if maybe I blocked myself from people too much by diving into MDD. I was never attracted to many real people throughout my life, as they weren't as favorable as my MDD characters. So, I wondered…

Everybody use to gossip about me and taunt me in school for a simple reason: I didn't talk at all. I was your shy awkward type who didn't ever fit in. I had a couple friends at a time, but not too many. Everybody else was extremely chatty, super outgoing and extrovert—"and neurotypical." I was the only student that had autism spectrum disorder, so I was challenged with communicating and interacting. So my school and college job experiences were rather traumatic. Even into my…

Till the age of 5, I hadn’t been daydreaming. Life was disgusting till then. My parents, who hated each other, fought like wild animals. This trauma forced me to cut myself off from the world — the reality — I live in. There was no source of joy left. I lived under a constant threat of another conflict flaring up in the house and under this situation, how could I be satisfied with anything?

Then came the television into my life. I was never fond of it, but once I saw an episode of a…

Hey guys, so it has been a little while since my last post, so just a quick update before I go through my daydream of today... Sam and I couldn't be happier right now, we're both excited for school, mostly because it means seeing each other more often, and we are not yet official but I think we're just waiting for the perfect time in person. Anyways, on with the entry...

So some background just to get the idea, Sam and I are both in military families, our dads have since retired. We…

Hi , It's been so long i haven't had any interaction with people anymore that i feel nervous right now typing this.

MD started when i was 6 years old and it keep on getting worse and worse. When i was 13 , i was humiliated by my school crush in front of my class and i decided i have to change. My weight was 80kg and i cut it down to 68 ( only sports no diet) ,i felt proud of myself ,but the sad part is that i have to do these things all on my own,  got no friends to brag about  or to…

Have any of you reached the stage where you just want to quit reality full time and totally live in your daydreaming?

Just moving from one daydream to another or a continuous stream of fantasy?

Books, movies, cartoons, fanfiction, real-life people or incidents can enable your dreaming. I've read comments on here that say that people know it's harmful and they are not truly living or doing anything with their life but they don't care. Don't want to stop. Well, I don't want to…

Thought this song might help some of you. It's so relatable to MD. Here are the lyrics~

https://youtu.be/385ULKbiyBo

Just Getting By- Tenth Avenue North

Does anyone on here consider MD to be a form of addiction?

I do.

I'll even admit that it's slowly ruining my life... but I don't want to stop. It has taken over, filled a void in my life and I fear and know that without it I would not be able to cope.

It is not innocent but it is my crutch, my security blanket. It didn't start out this way though. It creeps up on you. I use MD to cope with real-world problems including depression, anxiety and feelings of…