Ok, I'm not very good with texts and especially in English (I'm from Brazil), it's a surprise for me to meet people who are suffering from the same thing as me, because I actually discovered what MD is about three days ago, but I've been fighting him for seven years and I didn't even know.



I always felt like there was something wrong with me, it was strange, right after I finished high school, that's when it got worse, I converted a little before finishing school, and that was… Continue

It's impossible to make a blanket definition of creativity for every individual out there. But if I had the nerve, which I boast, then it would definitely include the word 'exposure'.

Some people claim that MD enables them to be more creative. I held that opinion once, too. The idea goes that only the state of being triggered into excessive daydreaming provides a suitable environment for your imagination to take shape.

How?

Abstract concepts and desires are lying at the…

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I was thinking about one of the most recurring topics among MDers, both former and those who still suffer from it. I'm talking about the theme of being stuck too far behind in time, or moving so slowly that there is seemingly no hope to catch up with the rest of the world.

I'm no stranger to that feeling as a former MDer. However, now that I can look back at my past ordeals and judge it from a refreshed perspective, I believe that the 'rest-of-the-world-to-do-catching-up-with' was…

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A lot of people felt that end with us was not that great a book but to be honest I liked it , it’s an exact depiction of what happens . I have lived like that though my father never really hit my mother they argued a lot and he has had many a times tried to hit me . I say try because some phir I have always been lucky and escaped and the whole making up after it and stuff the worst part is that same I can’t ever forgive me it’s impossible. My Maladaptive daydreaming started because of that…

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I don’t ever understand what’s going on in my brain, I always feel like I’m going mad, I feel like a complete stranger in my own body. I wish I could better explain what I experience, but I don’t know how to. I’m sorry, I’m just so exhausted. I wish the world would stop for a second. Life’s been going on for so long, & I just want a break. Just some moments of peace. Please, if not a lifetime of it.

Reading some blog posts on here made me realise something - my MD has set me back years. I had a distorted view of who I wanted to be through my daydreams - a violent person surrounded by drama and boys. And I realized, this is what I wanted when I was in primary school. I didn't want this to be my life when I'm out in the real world. But I was still clinging to this version of me, one with anger issues who can do whatever she wanted. 

A few months ago, I had some time without my…

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Hi everyone. I promised to myself that I'll post my honest feelings, so now I've decided to write an update. I've dreamt again.

Life has been rough recently so one day I couldn't resist the urges. At first it felt like heaven. But now as I continued daydreaming it started to get worse. Now life feels unbearable again. I know that I am strong enough to start again. Even if fall again, I'll pick myself up, over and…

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