MD set me back years - figuring out who I am

[Mils]

Reading some blog posts on here made me realise something - my MD has set me back years. I had a distorted view of who I wanted to be through my daydreams - a violent person surrounded by drama and boys. And I realized, this is what I wanted when I was in primary school. I didn't want this to be my life when I'm out in the real world. But I was still clinging to this version of me, one with anger issues who can do whatever she wanted. 

A few months ago, I had some time without my phone, meaning I couldn't listen to music and MD. Obviously I struggled so much at the start, but after a while I calmed down and had time to reflect. I realized what I wanted to be was the complete opposite (kind, peaceful, friends with lots of people), and my daydreams were encouraging me to act the opposite. 

So now it's a slow process, learning how to be who I actually wanna be, and letting go of old dreams. Younger me wouldn't be proud, but she'll get over it :)

What kind of experiences do you guys have with this stuff?

[Mina]

that's a lot i will write a blog post about it in the future  when this happen i will post an  link to it here