Hey! So by some miracle, I've finally managed to surpass my 14-day-streak of not maladaptive daydreaming. 33 days, woohoo!!! I'm just gonna tell you my thoughts and experiences in dot-points for the sake of time and ease:

• Despite still having strong urges to do it every now and then, it's starting to repulse me. Thinking about it reminds me of how horrible I would feel about myself after doing it.
• Even though I have not properly MDed for a month, it's still manifesting…

hiiii it's been a while

so lately I've been struggling with a lot of things, and then something hit me. If I didn't have MD for the majority of my life, I might've been able to achieve what I have dreamt of. Maybe if I didn't lose all those hours to it, I could've developed the social skills and intelligence to get what I wanted by now. I always dreamy of revenge of people who've hurt me, but I can't execute those plans now, I don't know I'm just writing stuff. It just hurts me to…

Reading some blog posts on here made me realise something - my MD has set me back years. I had a distorted view of who I wanted to be through my daydreams - a violent person surrounded by drama and boys. And I realized, this is what I wanted when I was in primary school. I didn't want this to be my life when I'm out in the real world. But I was still clinging to this version of me, one with anger issues who can do whatever she wanted. 

A few months ago, I had some time without my…

I just had my longest streak of not doing it - 3 days! 

I've managed to not let my usual triggers get to me, by either avoiding them or by throwing myself into another thing altogether to distract me. The trigger I'm struggling with is socialising - hanging out with friends and talking seems to have the biggest impact on me. I don't know how to keep it under control, I keep caving. I understand it's triggered because I want to be seen as cool or normal, but I already have friends who…

Hi, so lately I've been doing a lot of self-improvement and working on myself, and I realised that finally, I am happy with my life. I feel at ease, and I always thought that would stop my want to MD. It hasn't though. And when I did indulge, I realise that my daydreams wanted a different life than the one normal-me wanted. A life filled with adventure and danger, but I don't want that, not right now and not as I spend the rest of my life. 

I still want to MD now, but I do it much…

I'm reading through blogs and realising there are so many ways people daydream. Like, do you guys only have one way of daydreaming, do you have multiple, do you need music or need to be in a certain space, I'm genuinely interested!! :) 

Also how else does it affect you? I mumble to myself when I walk, kind of humming the conversation in my mind. If that makes sense :) 

Also, does anyone else daydream with spinning? 

I know I seem really excited today haha, I'm just happy…

When I was 7, my parents divorced. While I don't remember if it affected me or not, I do remember developing MD in that same year. It helped me a lot to distract from everything, and I built up this persona in my mind where I had freedom and power. 

As I grew older, my MDs made me feel like I was invincible. This took a hit to my social skills and awareness, and led me to get bullied once I entered high school. I thought that if I became my persona in my daydreams, the everyone would…

Hi, I signed up for this thing a while ago but I thought it was dead so I didn't end up using it. But hey, here I am!

I developed MD when I was 7, and it's still around today. I usually use writing and art as a way to express my experiences with it. As much as I appreciate it for helping me through rough times, I kinda want it gone. It's taken up so much of my time, my goals, my social life, and it's been getting worse lately, even though I feel happy. I was hoping to find some people…