Today I finally got prescribed for some medicine for my ADD. I am taking Vyvanse. I'm starting off one pill in the morning. I took one today, early afternoon. As soon as I took it I felt amazing. It's like my senses came to life, I was happy, less drowsy, more focused, didn't care what people thought, less random thinking, less self-consious, didn't…

i can't help but ask myself after i daydream for a long time why am i okay with this? why does it feel the same, or much better than real life should? why give me the skill of knowing all the answers if i can never act on it?

i'm scared everybody's right. this is all i'll ever be. a dreamer. a dreamer can be a beautiful thing if their dreams make…

     That's what I noticed I tend to tell myself when I'm daydreaming. "Ahh, I can stop if I want, I just don't want to right now." "I'll start tomorrow!" But I can't and I know I can't. It's like I can't control myself. I can't trust myself to not daydream. I don't know how to discipline myself. I procrastinate. & this isn't something I need to put off. I wanna be a little better for next school year. I swore this summer I'd do better but I feel I'm doing worse. That's what's really…