So, i started here two weeks ago, you dont really have to read this, i just want to keep my progress writed down and maybe give a bit of a hope to other persons going trought the same problems.

First of all, i'm trying to keep track of time of how much i fantasize, maybe i'll put a chronometer to get it right, but every day after i wake up, at lunch and after dinner i fantasize for like 30 minutes or 15.

Sometimes i turn off the clock and continue doing it anyway, but…

My excessively curious brain makes me learn about important things in the most unexpected ways possible.

This time, it happened while playing Ace Attorney. Happened twice, actually, but only once relevant to this post.

Not long after starting the game, I was getting YouTube recommendations about it. Mostly fandom things. Mostly severe brain damage inducing. Especially headcanon stuff. I hate the latter everywhere, not just in Ace Attorney.

Finally, I've got one that digs…

I think, at least to me, that my life wont be more  "boring" without daydreaming, It'll be only harsh, my imagination always had been with me, and now im trying to resist MD, its hard to think how my life will be without it. 

I ask myself if i one day ill stop talking out loud to myself, cause these days i'm even feeling bad doing so, it gives me a disassociation feeling. 

I'm a writer, so is ever harder not to do it with my own stories. 

I feel like i will have to kbow…

(English isn't my mother language so if i spell something wrong, sorry)

Ever since i knew myself i was a lonely kid, bullied in school ever since first grade, in my kindergarten i was the crybaby, and even my family disapproved of it and always had pointed out how i was emotional and easily depressed. My brother said that ever since I was 5 I was too anxious for a kid. …