This site is helping me a lot........but I have been trying to do my essay assignment for over a couple of hours now....and I wrote a sentence.....and then my mind is like "wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee!" "what assignmet?"

Then after my brain is done being stupid I switch to my assignment and there is that one sentence.

5 page essay...one sentence....thanks mind... :(

In my "other world" as I call it, I am the leader of the world known as an Alpha. I am strong, beautiful, courageous and i am not even human there. I am a human who can shift into a wolf. But I am also the dangerous type of shifter called a "beast". My world is full of forest, magical beings and impossible things. Every mythical creature that I know about exist here. They live among humans and they either coexist or hurt them. (Right now, I am just scratching the…

I haven't felt like this in awhile, but I am at such a low point in my self-esteem today (or perhaps sleep deprivation) that I find myself feeling ashamed for no particular reason. Then, of course, I start remembering every little thing I've said or done in the past 7 days that I am embarrassed by, or even have the mild possibility of being embarrassed by. Not to mention the general feeling of discontent in my stomach, like I'm waiting for something, desiring something, needing something…

It's bad enough that someone so talented, an Oscar winner died in his 40s, but then anyone who loses his/her life to addiction is a tragic loss.  PSH's death was a grim reminder that addiction and staying clean/sober is a life-long battle.

Philip Seymour Hoffman was clean for 23 years, and then last year he went back to drugs. They found him dead with a syringe sticking out of his arm, and bags of heroin in his apartment. Imagine the kind of self-loathing he must have felt, imagine…

Where to begin?....my life as a whole has been more like a washing machine of emotion with everything continuously tumbling round and round seemingly without end. One emotion rolls immediately into the next. One minute I'm happy, the next I am sad, then I am lonely, then I love nothing more than being alone. 

Admittedly, I don't remember much about my childhood, only that it was warm and safe. Everything was new, places and experiences were exciting. I can roughly remember the…

A few years ago I was diagnosed with an extreme case of ADHD (now I believe it has more to do with MD). The doctor gave my father a list of medications he believed I should take. My father (being a pharmacist and knowing the side effects of the medications) said there was no way I was going to take any of them. He had a talk with me in which he basically told me that I would just have…

So I got this thing when I was like 4 or 5 years old, now I am 15 and I just found out about this thing (I thought I was the only one and didn't know what it was) but i have a serious question, is this thing dangerous? Like does it have negative effects on your life? I know the effects will probably be mental or social not physical, I am asking you guys because you seem like you have more experience with it, and does it fade away as u grow up?

Someone mentioned in one of the discussion threads that he/she is staying away from music, and sticking to audio books. I decided to try and it has helped alot! It's like I end up visualizing the dialogue/ scenes as they are read out.  I think my need to MDD is more of a need to use my imagination.

I'm really into french and Russian literature. So I get to control my MDD and get to hear literature. Pure gold!

Do try it.

Just got this diagnosis, on top of PTSD and BPD. I've never told my therapist about my daydreaming, but one of the criteria is using fantasy as a form of escapism to interrupt painful thoughts. This definitely applied to me and explains why I do this. Found that interesting considering I never mentioned my daydreaming.

Off to daydream right now...had a bad day, again.

How mant times can i write about this? How many times can i think about it? What will it take? Im a hipocrite. Ill be the first to admit it. I try to be positive and optimistic. I am a liar. The truth is, i probably have one of the most severe cases of MDD. And it all feels like a curse. I just dont know anymore...about anything. I cant ask for advice; i wont actually take it. It doesnt matter if i specualte the "whys', "hows", or the "what ifs". Im still going to wake up tomorrow being this…

Last night I came clean to my husband about my fantasies. He kept prying to get an answer as to why I cry all the time and what is going on with me. Finally I gave in and told him..mostly everything. How I daydream constantly..how Captain Hook is not just a character on a movie to me, but someone close to my heart..how when he gets swollowed by the crocodile I feel depressed and grieve for him as if I have known him in my real life. How in my head, he's a real person and I've formed a…

hi.

i know not everyone on here paces, but i do.

as i've mentioned on here before, i used to have a different daydream/set of characters that started when i was 9. then, when i was 12, i actually stopped daydreaming for a month or two. soon enough, my MD came back with new characters, a new story, and... pacing.

since then, i have had several pacing-related injuries, because i get so into the daydreaming that i tend to not watch where i'm going. the most serious one was…

The video I obsessed over is finally finished. It became my obsession in place of daydreaming for awhile, but it's done. These characters are who I want to be. Or maybe a famous, lucrative video editor is what I want to be. I can't tell. But either way, it makes me feel things that I want to replicate in real life.

Also, not sure that video will work embedded, …