Wow, you all probably thought I left permanently or something! It's been nearly a month I guess. A lot of stuff has happened in my life. For the first time ever, I think I have fallen out of love. Things between Sam and me have just gotten a little... distant. He hasn't been communicating with me quite as often, which leads me to ultimately not thinking about him more and more. We just started talking again today. Today, of all days! My post is going to be mainly about the daydreams/dreams…

hey there, Im kinda new here or at least Ive never posted anything but Ive been feeling quite anxious recently so Ill share a little bit of my worries in this blog post. okay so I just finished high school successfully which suprised me the most, I thought id at least get one bad grade but my grades were the opposite of that. so other than having a mental breakdown and skipping a useless exam, my senior year went by well...academically. Because of that I was accepted into a med school that I…

hey there, Im kind new here or at least Ive never posted anything but Ive been feeling quite anxious recently so Ill share a little bit of my worries in this blog post. okay so I just finished high school successfully which suprised me the most, I thought id at least get one bad grade but my grades were the opposite of that, so other than having a mental breakdown and skipping a useless exam my senior year went by well...academically. Because of that I was…

I literally spent nearly 20 years day dreaming about needing a boyfriend, but just today, I feel that was a scary thing to do.

I don't know many people who've done this! They basically just payed attention to others and got the partner they wanted, in a super outgoing manner. I wonder if maybe I blocked myself from people too much by diving into MDD. I was never attracted to many real people throughout my life, as they weren't as favorable as my MDD characters. So, I wondered…

Everybody use to gossip about me and taunt me in school for a simple reason: I didn't talk at all. I was your shy awkward type who didn't ever fit in. I had a couple friends at a time, but not too many. Everybody else was extremely chatty, super outgoing and extrovert—"and neurotypical." I was the only student that had autism spectrum disorder, so I was challenged with communicating and interacting. So my school and college job experiences were rather traumatic. Even into my…