Seeking more tangible things

[Silver Swan]

I literally spent nearly 20 years day dreaming about needing a boyfriend, but just today, I feel that was a scary thing to do.
I don't know many people who've done this! They basically just payed attention to others and got the partner they wanted, in a super outgoing manner. I wonder if maybe I blocked myself from people too much by diving into MDD. I was never attracted to many real people throughout my life, as they weren't as favorable as my MDD characters. So, I wondered what would happen if I stopped having that attitude on realistic people for once in my life. My MDD is dwindling far more than my 20's, so this opens my eyes to newer and more tangible prospects.