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The Friends I Imagined, the Life I Missed

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Thirty-Nine and Still Dreaming

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I always wondered why I found it hard to it into society norms:…Continue

I learned that waiting around for things you really want to see get's you nowhere. Maladaptive daydreaming can fill that in for you. It comforts you into thinking everything will work out eventually,…Continue

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The Friends I Imagined, the Life I Missed

I've always wanted to be a well-liked and admired person, but I didn't do the work—I dreamed instead. I could've made this happen, but I lived in other fictional worlds, befriending fictional people. Meanwhile I wasn't living a real good life with real friends and real relationships. Thing is I'm neurodivergent and on the spectrum. This made it very difficult to communicate and interact very effectively with others, casting me out and making me feel lonely. I got very made fun of and looked…See More

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25 Years in a Daydream: The Cost of Silence

This may sound obvious to many daydreamers. I started MD when I was 12, and wish that I talked with my parents about my daydreaming disorder immediately when it started to make me laugh for nothing around everyone. It would've saved me the next 25 years of turmoil. Saying this, I daydreamed thickly through my teens, 20's and maybe regularly in my 30's. My grades were bare passes and I made lousy decisions towards my future, which I eventually regretted. In the relationship sector, I didn't…See More

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Jessica Ballantyne replied to Jessica Ballantyne's discussion Thirty-Nine and Still Dreaming

"Basically I'm expressing my feelings and thought process.."

Oct 27

vasya replied to Jessica Ballantyne's discussion Thirty-Nine and Still Dreaming

"I never did. But sometimes i do actually. I just text people, if in conflict, rather then tell face to face"

Oct 27

Jessica Ballantyne replied to Jessica Ballantyne's discussion Thirty-Nine and Still Dreaming

"Sure I will do this. Can you describe how you achieved this?"

Oct 27

vasya replied to Jessica Ballantyne's discussion Thirty-Nine and Still Dreaming

"People don't empathize DD'ers and shy people, if they themselves are social and externally focused. There is nothing to do about it, rather than ither accepting this as is or externalize your inner world and feelings yourself."

Oct 27

Jessica Ballantyne replied to Jessica Ballantyne's discussion Thirty-Nine and Still Dreaming

"I feel like nobody empathizes with me. I'm so quiet—and wonder if I look lame and stupid, or something. So they get mad and don't understand why I'm like this. Then they may get condescending...and not like me at all. "

Oct 27

Jessica Ballantyne replied to Jessica Ballantyne's discussion Thirty-Nine and Still Dreaming

"Yea, it's so easy to fall into it, when you feel good. Ha. "

Oct 24

vasya replied to Jessica Ballantyne's discussion Thirty-Nine and Still Dreaming

"but after doing what i proposed you will feel good. try not to fall to DD because of this good feeling tho."

Oct 23

Jessica Ballantyne replied to Jessica Ballantyne's discussion Thirty-Nine and Still Dreaming

"Yes, good idea"

Oct 23

vasya replied to Jessica Ballantyne's discussion Thirty-Nine and Still Dreaming

"damn it must've been toughhow about taking a jog around the block?than take a notebook and list next steps?"

Oct 23

Jessica Ballantyne posted a discussion

Thirty-Nine and Still Dreaming

I still MD from time to time, even though I'm already 39. I believed that I quit, but eventually it came back, but that's not the point. I wanted things since I was very young. I figured by the time I was in my 30's, I'd have a house, and be married with kids. I must've been joking my pants off, because these things aren't easy to get today. Clearly. MD made me believe things that I need will come around if I wait long enough. Here's the harsh truth. Things don't come over to you—you make sure…See More

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Jessica Ballantyne replied to Rosenheart's discussion Hope from the other side, a former MDDer

"It took me years to suppress MD altogether, I realized it was deeply effecting my life. I dealt with very embarrassing and nearly traumatic consequences. For instance, a lot of people found out what I must be doing, when I couldn't hear them or…"

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Jessica Ballantyne replied to HowToKillADragon's discussion Hiding my MD

"I wasn't aware I was on the "Spectrum" *Aspergers* when growing up, it found it odd how everybody treated me like I was a complete idiot and dislikable. Like I wasn't with them. Also, I was so very quiet, and nobody liked that…"

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Jessica Ballantyne replied to HowToKillADragon's discussion Hiding my MD

"I feel sad. I wish that I paid more attention to people, and put effort into that. Trouble is I was so absorbed in my daydream life, and didn't wake up to realize everybody real was calling out at me, and talking to me. I was actually more…"

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25 Years in a Daydream: The Cost of Silence

Posted on November 5, 2025 at 1:19pm 0 Comments 0 Likes

This may sound obvious to many daydreamers. I started MD when I was 12, and wish that I talked with my parents about my daydreaming disorder immediately when it started to make me laugh for nothing around everyone. It would've saved me the next 25 years of turmoil. Saying this, I daydreamed thickly through my teens, 20's and maybe regularly in my 30's.

My grades were bare passes and I made lousy decisions towards my future, which I eventually regretted.

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If only I did it better

Posted on May 24, 2024 at 9:46am 2 Comments 4 Likes

Parents have been telling their kids over the years that daydreaming doesn't get you ahead in the world. My parents never knew that I was a daydreamer, at least my mom didn't, and I was a very quiet kid. I was always thinking and trailing off now and then. Rather than staying in the present moment with others. I didn't tell them what's been going on in that head of mine.

Whatsoever, when I was 12, my dreams began to get very thick and overpowering. It made me feel wonderful…

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Verbal Skills

Posted on May 2, 2024 at 8:01pm 0 Comments 1 Like

I was a maladaptive daydreamer all my life, but it got overpowering starting at 12. I am shocked at how I didn't grow adjusted to my worldly environment and social situations. When I was floundering in other fictional worlds, I wasn't learning to excelerate my volcabulary, speech, and social interaction skills, but also my world perception, such as politics, religion, history, culture, and economics. Eventually, I grew up sounding like an idiot with no brain. Truly I'm a smart,…

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Outside my head

Posted on June 4, 2021 at 1:26pm 990 Comments 4 Likes

This is going to sound annoying. Living in a town for 29 years, all I ever heard by others is that I'm so quiet. They literally couldn't get a word out of me. I was too busy daydreaming in my head to realize how I looked on the outside. I actually never knew it made me look stupid. Non-family can be vigorous that way. I always used MD as a way to escape my frustrations, but it did me more harm that good, so I had to quit. It was the best decision I made.

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At 11:40pm on March 21, 2021, Deep blue said…: Hey do you mind if I ask what kinda job do you do Rn? I'm still a student and I've always wondered what people like us, who have MD, do when they grow up.

At 12:55pm on February 22, 2021, Varya said…: Hi. You can write to me as well, just in case. You seem like a nice and interesting person. varvaraamarantha@gmail.com

At 5:22pm on February 15, 2021, Raul said…: hi, if you want to talk, this is my email, i can hear you, talk to a person who goes through the same situation helps. raulvasconcelosb@gmail.com