I thought maybe if I talk about what stops me from visiting a counsellor or revealing my mental health status (also emotional health) to my family, it could contribute to any research or survey related to maladaptive daydreaming. So here's what I have to say.

1) In India people see stress, anxiety and depression as something that is a normal part of academic life of a student. Greater the level of studies, greater will be the stress and depression. Many times it is true. As the exams get… Continue

Like boderline personality disorder, obsessive compulsive disorder?

Not a single day since past six years has gone without shedding a tear:'-( It weakens me..........what's wrong?

Yes......I have started liking the feeling of feeling unpleasant. I try to emotionally hurt myself by purposely getting insulted by ppl, purposely staying alone, purposely making myself a culprit for all the problems in front of others. I get great satisfaction. When it comes to physical pain certain types of pain due make me smile(like the burning pain you get when u fall on the ground or that of a scratch, menstrual cramps, etc). However I would still like to stay away from headaches and… Continue

Well....I have a habit of lying over almost everything(even the smallest of facts). Even though I'm not always successful in covering up my lies and usually end up spilling the beans myself with my words and getting caught and staying mum ultimately, I'm worried about my habit. Recently I read it has got a close link to personality disorders and becoming a criminal in future. Here are some facts about me:- 1) MALADAPTIVE DAYDREAMER with thoughts of having a POWERFUL and influential position… Continue

I'm really dumb and stupid. Im so clumsy. And as I daydream, I try to be an extrovert and centre of attention in reality but unfortunately end up appearing even more dumb. Ive been called so by my teachers in primary school and by others who are not even superior to me like my teachers are. Since ive grown now, nobody tells this to me in my face. But im sure thats what they'll be thinking.......she's so stupid. The unfortunate part is.......im soon going to complete my mbbs in a year. So im… Continue

MD is no longer an additional or extra element of my life. I daydream just as I breath and carry on with other work without any disturbance. It has just made me a little more emotional.....or I would say it has bottled up emotions concerned with a particular thing as a result of which I express these feelings over small small things that are not appropriate crying for. This is my life. I don't know how well I've explained. But yes......that's how it is.....I feel I'm nothing..... Continue

I'm very possesive abt my things. When anybody touches my things I cant stand that person. I get mad at ppl if they do so. I feel they r no more mine and I should abandon them even if I love them more than my life. Then I cry the entire night, say the last goodbye with love and a feeling of sacrifice and finally stop using those things. My first grade teacher told me that whenever I lost an eraser or pencil in class I would keep panicking until I found it. I'm so possessive abt my ambitition… Continue

Hey guys....ive got the most supportive frnds ever. But ppl say frnds dont last as they move on their lives. My teachers are obviously not concerned unlike in my daydreams. Ofcourse every1 got to b professional. My parents....ppl say parents r God. But I recently heard my parents talking to each other abt me "this girl thinks no end of herself. She feels she is the only smart person and others are fool. She should realise how ugly she looks then she would know what actually she is". Do all… Continue

At this stage I would now never stop daydreaming. In last one yr so much has changed in my life. From house to ppl I live with and my lifestyle. The things which I once had have all gone now. (and all these small changes do affect us MDers to a great extent.....right?) So basically I cant call anything in life as Mine. All the things(both small objects to big ppl) I was once emotionally attached to have gone except my daydreams and the character in my dream. They support me every now and then.… Continue

An unlucky person is not the one who has MD and who daydreams. Rather it is the one who has MD and cant daydream. You feel like ur day is incomplete. Ur life is incomplete. Not being able to daydream freely since past 6months, i dont feel like doing anything else. I just feel like dying. It has affected my studies really badly. My mom has started staying at home. I dont get to daydream. Neither can i study. Ppl have a lot of expectations from me. But they dont know that things in my house have… Continue

I seriously dont know anything! I dont know what i want. i just dont know what im doing. i dont even feel like asking God for death. i just know that time os going by. I used to enjoy daydreaming when i was left alone......when my mom went to office! i would do everything on tym. from getting up early in the morning to finishing my studies inspire of daydreaming. my mom has now retired from office job and is usually at home 24x7. And i dont think i need to explain after this..........i cant… Continue

Hey...... many ppl hav became a part of my daydreams and ive got emotionally attached to them at some point of time. But then i got over them and no more think of them. I dont even remember some of them. But one guy became a part of my daydream during the struggling phase of my life two years back. Its now the same day, when v 1st met, after two yrs. I still think of him and ask God to bless him and giv him lots of success and love. Bunty.....i no more dream abt u. But still u will b in my… Continue

I get mad if i dont get privacy to daydream. I've always been a topper. Studies have never been a burden for me because i always got entertainment simultaneously with studying.....in the form of maladaptive daydreaming ofcourse! And this was possible only because i would be alone throughout the day and had the freedom to pace around, change my facial expression, dance, listen to music, cry, etc. But recently my mom left her job and im being able to neither daydream nor study. Im scared. What if… Continue

Okay......many people on this site have suggested a few things to me to try out myself to stop MD. but its an extremely difficult task. I think a therapy would be much more effective. So here are a few questions, answers to which solve my doubts.

1. Is there a therapy available for MD?
2. MD is not an officially recognized disorder. At least I don't think doctors in India know about it. Will the doctor be able to understand what I'm going through and give me proper treatment?…

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I really had to apologise to God for this. I have been taught to be happy with whatever I have and thank God for it because all aren't blessed with everything in the world. What I have others may not have. What they have I may not have. If I have problems and sorrows in my life others will be having twice the amount of pain I have. Yes! this is true. I see so many people who are poor, don't have home, education, food, are being exploited,etc. At least I've been blessed with all these things.…

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I saw a guy, liked him and involved him in my daydreams. This has happened many times before. Many guys, girls, villains have come and gone. But his time I developed a crush on this guy and have become emotionally attached to him.

It's weird because he's one of those people who are not related to me at all, never spoken to me. You know, when you're walking on the road there are so many people walking with you. He's one of them who will not even be knowing that I exist.

I can no…

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Hey friends, I deleted my account just day before yesterday because I thought there is no solution for my MD and so its no point wasting time here. I WAS WRONG. I had forgotten that there is no one who will be able to understand me better than you'll. So I came back. Now, coming to the point I've lost interest in everything, I can no more study. So, I took help from our family doctor who said that I may be suffering from 'brain fatigue'. Can you help me out please. My board exams are in…

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