Hi. This is my first post on here, so I wanted to go over why I think I might have MDD and see if anyone else has experienced something similar. Sorry in advance for the length- this is actually the short version.

I've been daydreaming vividly almost every day for 4 years. I've always loved telling stories, and the first time my daydreams became so strong was when I decided that I wanted to meet a character I love from a video game. I created an imaginary plot line which would allow…

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Usually in my daydreams, I am this highly well-read and eloquent person speaking on very intellectual subjects in an assembly of people I know in real life and everyone of whom I wanted to impress with my skills and prove that I am capable, but for a myriad reasons couldn't(and those reasons including MD's excruciating by product-OCD,atleast in my life,are a discussion for another day)However the point that I seek to broach today is this that In my daydreams I feel more alive than…

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Often I find myself blurting out nonsensical sentences. Somewhat like a stream of consciousness without any meaning. I'm pretty sure it happens when a negative or painful memory or feeling comes to mind. My ego wants to avoid pain so its default defense is to replace the pain with any other thought that will cause a distraction. Weird, I know. I have been making a conscious effort to allow myself to feel whatever is triggering this action. My hope is to confront the issue with my new…

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Hey everyone! It's been so long since I've contributed to a website, let alone sign up for it. Anyways, I'm a high school student who has been daydreaming for ever since I was around 8-9 years old. Now I started daydreaming due to the awesome actions scenes and music in this one video game. I decided to make up a plot in my head based on the events in the game itself but instead, mine has myself, the people I know, and even the fictional characters. Ever since then, whatever show/game I find…

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First of all, I just want to say thank you so much to Ms. Cordellia Rose for this lovely website. It helps me so much to have a safe outlet to come to and share my thoughts, feelings, concerns, etc., since my family members, boyfriend, and even therapist are completely in the dark about MDD. 

     I am Jennifer, a 21 year old college student who struggles with MDD. I daydream at least 3 times a week, and it is always…

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I have been diagnosed with panic disorder. I discribed my doc what i was going through and told her about my mdd. She prescribed me olepra and zoloft. I have been calm since than but today again i started to get scared. I thought i was losing touch with reality and beliveing my daydreams to be true. This is so confusing. Am i actually psychotic? Has anyone over here experienced this? Please do respond..

Sorry, i am new to this website and majority of the time i have no idea what i am doing. And i absolutely know no one over here which just makes things harder. Can anyone help me with this? Your help will be appreciated! Love :*

It almost feels like i have no emotions towards the real world. I feel happy, sad or any other emotion only when I daydream. I never feel them in real world... it feels like all my emotions have been pushed in the back of my head and I cant find any way to pull them back out in reality. Does anyone else feel like this? Can anyone help me with this? 

Does anybody feel like they get some kind of high off their daydreams? Especially when listening to music? My heart starts racing and I can't sit still and it feels like a drug

Last night I had a nightmare. It might be more accurate to call it a night terror. It isn't that unusual for me, I used to have them very often. Over the years they have lessened quite a bit.  I don't usually remember what they are about, I only know that I am terrified. So much so that it's hard for me to scream out and I'm almost paralyzed. I do scream out now, which scares my wife as much as it does me.

I have had these nightmares from a very young age, sometime around when I began…

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I have this odd relationship with my daydreams. Since I found out that I'm not the only person out there who does this, and since I examined the ways my daydreaming has negatively affected my real life, I've tried to daydream less. I'd always assumed that some day, when I fall in love and have kids and a house and a family, I would stop daydreaming. For years I thought I was just kind of playing, even as a teenager, and that I would eventually grow out of it. But I have realized that if I…

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I have been daydreaming for years now. The world in my head is great. I can be anything i want amd things will go as i want to them to go. But what about reality? I was average in school ( or below). For years in my mdding i have been dreaming about becoming a successful physicist who will solve the most complex mysterious of quantum gravity and relativity. What chances do i have of success? I have imagined up solutions to those problems in my head a million times. But they are just imagination… Continue

Hi everyone, I'm Dan, the new kid in town. A little of my background: I'm 63 yo; married to the love of my life for 37 yrs; Father of two beautiful grown children; I am owned by a little 13 yo Shih Tsu named Precious; worked in telecommunications for 30 yrs, now retired (and loving it); love gardening & communing with nature. Self improvement is also one of my passions. Which is probably the main reason I ended up here with fellow MD people. I want to communicate with other people that…

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