EDIT: I looked it up, and I have an anxiety disorder. MD was covering it up, like a camouflage, while also comforting me. I won't erase this post, but it looks like the problem isn't MD anymore at all. I have another problem that tempts me to seek comfort in DD again. But I can now control MD, and I will face my anxiety problem face-on...just like I did with MD itself! It is the one important thing that my daydreams taught me how to do :)

I will probably write only another…

Hi again! I hope the new year started beautifully for all of you :)

I'm making progress in rooting myself to reality, and it's still like a whole new world to me! I keep forgetting rules of the imaginary don't apply here, that everything is changeable and imperfect. However, good things have a way bigger worth in the real world. And I would never change valuable, real feelings for any DD ones! They have a much stronger, richer flavor, that cannot be easily…

Happy new year, everyone!!! :D

Double celebration for me: one month since I escaped MD!

I am still confused sometimes: it feels like having a wall at the back of my brain, that doesn't let me think clearly. And when I say "I feel" it's not a metaphor, it feels solid and has been bugging me for years. I even wondered if it is a brain problem. But, recently, there are moments when this block is lifted and, suddenly, reality becomes interesting. My brain functions on a…

Hi again!

It's been 3 weeks since I escaped MD, and I keep having the upper hand (yay!) Because I now know how to avoid being stuck in an infinite DD. Writing this Blog -and you, guys- have helped me veeeeeeeeeeery much to get this far! (If you're thinking of making a blog yourselves, do it! I wholeheartedly recommend it! It's great for keeping track of your progress, and getting comments from people that can understand) 

However...

my "older self" is still…