I sit here now on new years eve watching my family unwinding and gearing up for 2014 and It feels like I'm watching a movie play out. A drab movie I'm forced to watch. A plane going down without its pilot being able to take to the controls. It's dawned on me that next year is going to be exactly like last year and this year and so on and so on no matter what aspiring resolutions I make to dramatically turn my life around.

The same music I don't listen to.  The same technology…

An hour until Christmas and I'm on beer number....I don't even know anymore lol. Before I get too drunk I just wanted to wish everyone a wonderful Christmas even though I don't know anyone yet hehe :)

Hope you all have an amazing time with those that matter to you and don't daydream the day  away too much! 

Hoping to get to know you all soon.

Wolfie :D

*Had to edit this because I totally jumbled up the wording. I better stop now…

So I was kind of thinking about this last night and early this morning I don't think all that highly of myself, I never really have. I'm not negative about it or anything like I don't get all depressed. I just don't take in compliments so much they tend to go in one ear and out the other. Also, I've found I can still smile and feel happy but I'm never truly lifted without the weight of regret dragging me down. 

It's occurred to me when I day dream it usually revolves around me…

Trying to be more of a glass half full kind of guy but I can't help but feel a little despondent that my top university turned me down. It wasn't so much their decision but the reason for their decision that has upset me.

I was told I had a very strong application and I had almost all of the entry requirements asked of me except my GCSE maths which was C instead of B. I was hoping so much that I stood a chance but they rejected me outright without question.

It…