My house-mates and I sat down last night to have a "Star Wars" marathon... and I got bored with it very quickly. Just not my thing I guess. (However it is quite long!) But we did finish the last episode just now... and I did see that to the end.

I'm finding it really hard to be interested in films these days. And I'm worried that my MD world has taken over my ability to enjoy good movies. Or even TV for that matter. My friends start watching something, then I get bored, and go into my…

I've had a surprisingly lovely day today. Lots of baby cuddles and kiddy fun. Even though I'm an adult, kids are great to be around and I like to become one of them when we're together! (:

I don't have children myself, so it's nice to be with someone elses for a while. My friends' 6 week old little girl fell asleep in my arms and I really loved that. What a great birthday hey. And I'm thankful.

Don't mind if I have no energy to get up and do things today. I can stay in bed and live through my favourite DD's. So I'm giving in today. But does it really matter?

I've spent most of the weekend with people (in real life) and it's exhausting. I couldn't wait to get home to my favourite people! But it is sad that they are only in my head. They are the only ones who make me feel good about myself.

Saw my counsellor last week and told her my secret about DDing. It was really…

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Amazing Grace sung at the Colsseum.

I haven't picked up a script in years but I am proud of myself for contacting our local theatre company today. I had a chat to a guy about volunteering my time backstage until I get my confidence back. So I'm meeting up with a few people over the weekend about the upcoming production. How cool is that! And quite an easy step.

I love performing, although I'm not sure if I can learn lines the way I used to. Has anyone else done theatre performance before? You can be creative up to a…

The Doctor and Rose just separated! (Dr Who) On national TV in Australia tonight. How sad. I've seen the episode before, but it's still very sad. But you see, I can continue to watch past episodes over and over again, until I'm sick of it. Remind you of something familiar? Yeah, I'm passionate about lots of things. Some real, most...not.

Is it a dependence on emotions? That keep us DDing? It is nice to feel things and be in control of a situation. And I guess life isn't always like…

"It's like you're a drug / it's like you're a demon I can't face down / it's like I'm stuck / it's like I'm running from you all the time / and I know I let / you have all the power / it's like the only company I seek / is misery all around / it's like you're a leach / sucking the life from me / it's like I can't breathe / without you inside of me / and I know I let you / have all the power / and I realise I'm never gonna / quit you over time...

It's like I can't breathe / it's like I…