In bed today...exhausted or hiding from life?

[Jules]

Don't mind if I have no energy to get up and do things today. I can stay in bed and live through my favourite DD's. So I'm giving in today. But does it really matter?

I've spent most of the weekend with people (in real life) and it's exhausting. I couldn't wait to get home to my favourite people! But it is sad that they are only in my head. They are the only ones who make me feel good about myself.

Saw my counsellor last week and told her my secret about DDing. It was really difficult to get the words out! And when she asked me what happens in them.......I was SO uncomfortable! But she asked me to share more next time. So I have to psych myself up for that. She believes that these characters need to be listened to. Especially the one who I say is me.

Well, that a different approach I havent heard before. But intriging. We've known each other for a while so I think I can trust her to keep sharing. I need to do something. Because I cant keep running from life like this. Might as well be dead now then!

I need to come back to life.

[rainydaydreams]

Its great that you have found someone who is open minded enough to talk about your MD I personally would freak out if asked to share what goes on in their - odd then that I'm writing them as a novel but hey I never said I don't need therapy.

greyartist your councilor sounds more interested in being right than your issues, says more about her that you IMO.

[Jules]

LilySierra:  Thank you!

Aine:  Thanks for your encouragement.

greyartist:  Sorry to hear that your counsellor didn't listen to you properly. My counsellor is a special Christian one and does things a bit differently from a psychologist etc. But she is leaving me after Easter, so I feel like I need to "get down to work" with her while she is still around. She is really good at what she does. And I trust her. For you, maybe shop around? And ask others? To have a good repore with someone you trust and feel like they are able to help you, makes such a difference.

[greyartist]

I meant, NEVER addressed my issues with MD. sorry

[greyartist]

It sounds like she is open to hearing about your MD. That's good. I tried telling a councilor, I even gave her a copy of one of the MD articles that explained it. She spent the rest of my "time" telling me how unreliable this study was because it wasn't done properly. Very addressed my issuses with MD. She labeled me bipolar and that was that.

[Aine]

Hi Jules,

I know how hard it was to get those words out to your therapist. I've only told mine recently. I haven't been asked to share about my dd's yet. My therapist is so supportive and open minded. Take it slow and I'm sure it'll be fine, and only share what you are comfortable with.

I agree that people can be exhausting in real life. Do let me know how things go.

All the best from NYC