I don't really know what the aim of me writing this down is except to get it out of my head I guess.

Last night I had a dream about my daydream crush he was waiting at a bar to meet me and to begin with he was chatty and I felt nervous like a real date and then he began ignoring me and talking to other people. I felt really upset. I went to get a drink and when I went back to the table he was gone and then reappeared to tell me he was going off with his friends.

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I was really excited as I am actually having a Christmas break this year which is rare working in retail.

I usually find this the most depressing time of the year, I love my family but to be stuck with them for 3 days straight is driving me crazy. I have no time to get inside my head and have felt really lonely and strange being completely present all day. But at night when I've tried to daydream I can't. My current daydream was started this time last year by a show I watched and has…

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This random thought crossed my mind today. Isn't everyone guilty of trying to escape reality? We go inside our minds and create stories and different lives. 

Other people escape through gaming for hours or binge watching tv shows or films and people escape into books using them to take them into another  world. I sometimes feel I would drown in reality without my daydreams and worried why it was I couldn't cope but I am beginning to think everyone feels the same need to escape but…

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I've been finding it difficult to daydream recently. My mind has been preoccupied with work stresses. It's been leaving me feeling extremely lonely and sad.

I have 2 days off from work and feel so low. Last night I had a lucid dream where I knew I was dreaming so I brought up my daydream guy so I could dream about him clearly. It sounds odd but even in my dream I knew this story came from my daydreams.

I follow this person on social media I've tried to cut down the amount I…

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It's a double edge sword. MD has stopped me pushing forward in life and doing things as it can take away days but without I truly do believe I would not be here today.

It shields me or hides my depression from me.

I have felt suicidal in the past and somehow it has pulled me through I imagine happiness and friendships and love but then when reality bites I realise MD maybe causing my depression getting me to stay in and not socialise unless necessary like work.

I want to…

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I just need to clear my mind and confess my feelings from today.

I don't have anyone else to tell and I am scared to incase they take my daydreams away from me with making me feel ashamed or embarrassed.

I feel like I am losing it slowly, I feel I am obsessed. I know why I daydream I want my life to be more fulfilling than working long hours and then coming home to sit on my phone and daydream my evenings away.

I dream about falling in love and someone falling in love…

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At the moment I feel totally lost, daydreaming seems to be taking over my life. Normally I feel like I have more control over it. I feel like I can set the boundaries.

I would limit myself to DD before going to sleep and could easily cope with being at work and interacting with people. The last month or so I've noticed a change where I feel distant from everyone.…

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