Feeling so alone

[SJ]

I've been finding it difficult to daydream recently. My mind has been preoccupied with work stresses. It's been leaving me feeling extremely lonely and sad.

I have 2 days off from work and feel so low. Last night I had a lucid dream where I knew I was dreaming so I brought up my daydream guy so I could dream about him clearly. It sounds odd but even in my dream I knew this story came from my daydreams.

I follow this person on social media I've tried to cut down the amount I check but the lonelier I feel the more I check. I have other celebs in my daydreams who are friends but I find my mind wanders and starts telling me these people are out living their lives without knowing my existence. I then feel pathetic and lonely that I am wasting my energy but at the same time I don't want to let go.

I know I will eventually as I have done before as I have spent time day dreaming about celebs since my teens and they are always changing and be replaced. I always worry about losing them but then they fade from my mind.

I know I daydream to fill the loneliness as I don't daydream when I am around people only when I am alone. 

I feel like my head is spinning I want to switch it off but I am so afraid at the same time.

[victoria zaia]

I'm sorry you are feeling this way

[Fallen Messenger]

I hate daydreaming, but it's even worse when you can't daydream. MD is an addiction like any other, and I feel like we preform worse when we're off of our 'high' than when we are 'high'. I know the daydreaming will come back, it always does, so I guess that everything will fall back to how it was. But isn't it interesting to finally be able to see reality for how it is, without the clouds blocking the view, after all, our heads are always in the clouds, so I get the anxiety and embarrassment MD gives you, it sucks man, it sucks.