Where wild minds come to rest
I was really excited as I am actually having a Christmas break this year which is rare working in retail.
I usually find this the most depressing time of the year, I love my family but to be stuck with them for 3 days straight is driving me crazy. I have no time to get inside my head and have felt really lonely and strange being completely present all day. But at night when I've tried to daydream I can't. My current daydream was started this time last year by a show I watched and has been with me everyday since. I feel lonely when I think about these people living their lives and enjoying Christmas and that I have invested so much time in strangers. Who if I really met may not even like.
Every new year is the same I promise myself this will be the year I cut down on MD that I will live out in the world and I will have a real relationship with someone and the year always passes again with missed moments while I was in my head.