i'm not surprised to see wild minds go considering how inactive it has been over the past few years, but i'm still heartbroken in a way. this place literally saw me grow up for 10 years.

when i was 13 years old and first found out about MD, i was so scared. i found this site and messaged cordellia paragraphs and paragraphs because i was terrified that some doctor somewhere was going to strap me down and do surgery on my brain to find out what was wrong with me. if you look through my…

my daydreaming has decreased a lot lately, and i think i might have an idea why. 

as i've mentioned on here several times before, my daydreaming tends to decrease when i'm in a relationship. my daydreams have a strong romantic element, so my theory is that when i'm getting that romance in real life, my needs are met and i don't feel the need to daydream as much. i'm currently in a new relationship as of last month, and i'm not daydreaming nearly as much as i used to. 

but i…

this has only happened one other time in the 3 years i've lived with roommates, which was in november. this was 5 minutes ago - i had absolutely no idea that my roommate was in the room and i began to pace. she started laughing so hard she was crying and said "why did you just do that??"

i was so shocked because i had no idea that she was even in the room. and when i'm pacing, i can't tell what it looks like. i describe it as pacing and to me i'm just pacing, but my mom has told me…

this has never happened before in the 3 years i've lived with roommates. i was pacing in circles around the kitchen (and it's the middle of the night) and my roommate walked in and i scared her so badly. it basically looked like i was charging right at her (even though that's not what i was doing at all). in my mind i'm just pacing, but to anyone else it looks and sounds like i am running at full speed and stomping my feet very loudly (i know this from my mom). i am extremely embarrassed and…

hey there, it's been over a year since i made a blog post on here so i figured i should post an update on my MD and how it has progressed. i'm seeing a lot of new faces on this website, so for everyone who is new, welcome!! 

i'm 20 years old and a junior in college (university) and i live in the usa. MD is something that has been a constant in my life since i was 9 years old, and i've had the same set of characters since i was 12 years old. i found out about MD and this website when i…

i wasn't even pacing for one minute when i ran into the wall again and broke ANOTHER picture frame... probably the fifth one. i always tell my mom that the pictures randomly fell off the wall and broke, but i think she knows it's my MD. ive told her about it before, but she told me to stop telling her about it because it scares her. that was 5 years ago. i move into my apartment in september... i managed not to break anything in my dorm last year, but i don't know how i'm going to explain it…

i've always been comfortable with my daydreaming and i've always told myself that i don't want to stop until i'm engaged or married because i'll feel like i'm cheating on my husband with my main/favorite male daydream character. after i got into my first real relationship last summer, i thought i wouldn't have to worry about that anymore. my daydreaming lessened each day as i fell more and more in love with this real life guy who actually liked me back. it never fully stopped, but it got to…

for as long as i can remember, my daydreams have involved romance as a main theme. and for as long as i can remember, i've been desperate for a relationship. "boy crazy" doesn't even begin to describe me. when i go somewhere, my first thought is always i hope there are cute boys. when i'm not daydreaming, i'm almost always thinking about boys and how i can get a boyfriend.

in spite of this, i am eighteen years old and had never been in a relationship until about a month ago.…

i can't believe it's been almost a year since i last posted on here

i turn 18 next month and am starting college this fall, which is absolutely terrifying, but i'm dealing with it.

yes, i still have md-- it's the same as before and i guess it took me so long to post this because i haven't really had anything to say about it. i still pace, i still have the same characters, nothing new.

one thing that i was thinking about, though, is that i have had the same characters…

hi. 

as i mentioned in a previous blog post, i pace. my pacing often causes many injuries/accidents, but i can't stop. 

about twenty minutes ago, i was pacing when i ran into the wall, and a picture frame fell off the wall. there was glass everywhere. 

three weeks ago, i was pacing when i ran into a decorative plate that was hanging on the wall, and it shattered to…

i'm an introvert.

i am literally my own best friend.

i am an only child, and both of my parents work, so i'm home alone most of the time. i didn't grow up with cousins that were my age because they're all 17+ years older than me (my parents are both the youngest in their families with huge age gaps between them and their siblings, who all married at 18 except for my parents...). at family parties, it has always been me sitting around with all these adults with no one to talk to…

hi.

i know not everyone on here paces, but i do.

as i've mentioned on here before, i used to have a different daydream/set of characters that started when i was 9. then, when i was 12, i actually stopped daydreaming for a month or two. soon enough, my MD came back with new characters, a new story, and... pacing.

since then, i have had several pacing-related injuries, because i get so into the daydreaming that i tend to not watch where i'm going. the most serious one was…

hello again. 

i tend to go long periods of time without posting on here, and i apologize for that. i usually only come on here when i have a question, but it's different this time. 

if you forgot (and you probably did haha), i'm meghan. i'm currently 16 years old and a junior in high school. i have had MD since i was 9 years old. to sum up my MD: i usually either lie down while daydreaming or pace and listen to music while daydreaming, although i can daydream without doing…

hi.

the other day i bought a necklace that is an owl with glasses.

i bought it because my main character (and my favorite character)'s nickname is owl, and he wears glasses.

i love this necklace so much and i'm never taking it off for as long as i live. (okay, maybe that's a lie)

it's so weird how it has a meaning behind it and i'm the only one who knows. it's almost like an inside joke with myself, only it's not really a joke. i don't know, i just think it's…

i know i'm making a lot of blog posts lately, but MD-related stuff keeps happening that makes me want to post about it

okay

so today i was in a thrift store and there was this guy who looked EXACTLY LIKE MY CHARACTER

MY MAIN CHARACTER

MY FAVORITE

and i almost had a heart attack when i saw him and i was following him around the store like a creep just so i could stare at him

and i tried to spend as much time in the store as i could so i could keep…

i'm currently 16. and i feel like i write about this a lot on here, but i'm in love with my characters.

like, i'm really in love with my characters.

i've noticed that a lot of people with MD are really into all the action that happens in their daydreams, always coming up with different situations for their characters to get into and then starting over again. fighting zombies, stranded in the wilderness, going to space...

not me. i've created these characters who are the…

i have had BAD social anxiety for almost two years, after finding out that my group of friends secretly hated me because i was annoying. (i'm in high school.)  i only leave the house when i absolutely have to (in the summer, it was only about once a week). when i do leave the house, i don't like to talk because i'm afraid of annoying people, and i can't stop thinking "don't look at me don't look at me" because i hate the way i look. i try my best to avoid social situations, and i have almost…

hi.

it's been awhile.

sometimes i feel like my daydream story is like one of those lame soap operas that everyone makes fun of. you know, the ones where every episode includes death and trips to the hospital and crimes and unplanned pregnancies and extreme plot twists and stuff like that.

but when a particular set of characters is on your mind half the time you're awake, you tend to run out of realistic things to add to their story.

i'm trying to write down my…

do you ever have those nights where the music you're listening to triggers your MD so much that you can't stop pacing to the point where you consider duct taping yourself to the floor so you can focus on whatever you're doing

because that's how i feel tonight