Sometimes I daydream so much that I forget to do self-care. Taking meds, multi vitamin, turmeric. I read somewhere that the same areas where people developed Alzheimers is the same area where people daydream. It freaked me out so I started taking turmeric. India has one of the lowest rates of Alzheimers- it is thought turmeric in the Indian food may reduce inflammation. Flossed my teeth. good toothbrush cleaning. Trying to get back to reality. Clawing my way back out of the quicksand of MD.

I had quite a binge on MD this weekend. My heads hurts. Going to read a book now on “Gifted Education.” My son is gifted - trying to get out of the MD mode and into the real life mode. One moment at a time. one day at a time. Going back to reality.

I have started MDD again. Feeling guilty about it. Recognizing it is just part of recovery. I think tomorrow if I have the urge to daydream I I’ll read a book

 I am finding that when I go on a MD binge that I don't take care of the house like I should. Dishes pile up. Piles of dirty clothes. Not picking up after myself.  Then, I come off my binge and then try to detox my house.