I am sorry I have written a lot but I would like you all to hear my story. The first paragraph is on my experience with God helping me with stopping my MDD. The second paragraph is on my night terror that is linked to both God and my MDD. Wow I never really thought i was this religious until now! Please try and enjoy if possible.

I don't know what you guys would call a spiritual moment but I believe it is…

I like to draw and i am a good drawer.... well thats what the others say anyway. Drawing is one of my main hobbies which is one of a few things i do other than daydream. But i have stopped lately because i have a friend who is a AMAZING  drawer. I am jealous of her and i don't care that much that she is way better than me but it must affect me more than i think because i have been thinking, 'Why should i draw she is better than me anyway'. I feel so sad, before i came to high school i was…

I have no idea what i am trying to say and my thoughts will most likely change. All i know is that i am having a hard time with my MDD.

Lately i have been thinking whats the point of living? Whats the point of anything? I know it makes me sound emo or depressed but the strange thing is that i am not and i am normally happy but yet i think these things.

Over the holidays my MDD has gotten worse and i am not proud. I try to stop and do other activities instead but i just don't…

Yesterday i was watching a documentary on how music effects the brain. It was called 'The Musical Brian'. There was a part in it that fascinated me because it reminded me of MDD. It ends up when you move to music that you like it creates a chemical in your brain that makes you happy. This is probably why lots of us daydream while listening to music and pacing because it creates this certain chemical in…