My Purpose

[Sunshine]

I like to draw and i am a good drawer.... well thats what the others say anyway. Drawing is one of my main hobbies which is one of a few things i do other than daydream. But i have stopped lately because i have a friend who is a AMAZING  drawer. I am jealous of her and i don't care that much that she is way better than me but it must affect me more than i think because i have been thinking, 'Why should i draw she is better than me anyway'. I feel so sad, before i came to high school i was the best drawer. I had a purpose and i was special...but now i feel like nothing, she stole my talent. I am in year 9 now and i have been friends with her sice year 7 and i got over it because she draws anime and she doesn't bother with real people and she said she was bad at it, so i thought 'YES SOMETHING I AM BETTER AT' i felt good. But this year she tells me she is drawing real people and she is pretty good, and there goes the thing i am good at. I am a nobody.

Its even worse because she is smarter than me too but i am still smart though. She is Asian though, not trying to be racist.

Now that i have been negative i will now say i know i shouldn't care but i do and i know there is ALOT of people better than me. Most of u are i bet. But in my life and out of my friends.... idk i like her and she is one of my bestfriends and i am happy for her and i don't normally think this negative around her but when i get home.... i care. I just want a purpose! Something i am good at that makes me different from the others. :'(

For saying this i feel like a selfish bitch. I try to hide the fact that i think this from the others and myself...but i need to let it out.

I should and i hope i get over it.And  to let you know it has only been 2 days (i know i am really sad).

[Andrea]

It can always be hard when someone is better at you than something---especially if that something is your passion or a talent that gives your sense of identity. You were The Drawer; but now that someone is a better drawer than you, you feel like you've lost a part of what defined you. 

But it's important to know that no matter how good you are at something, no matter where you go, there is bound to be someone who is better than you. Even the person who is better than you has someone who is better than THEM. But it doesn't mean you have to stop doing what you love! Things like drawing,painting,writing,dance, etc is something you never really stop learning and can always be improved upon. You can learn from her and get better--not in a competitive sort of way, but in a way that allows you to grow as an artist :) 

[roxanne]

That's why we need our friends!

[Sunshine]

Wow you all are so wonderful! :) Thankyou. And the funny thing is after saying everything i did i agree with what most people are saying. I just needed to be reminded.

[havoc]

oh dear i think i'm like your friend, in the way people always say they wish they could 'draw like me' or want to be as 'good as me' (which i dont agree with) i think your style of drawings show who you are, many people seem to think that what makes a drawing 'good' is its accuracy and detail. i disagree with that, if someone has put a lot of time and effort in a piece of art, but it is not 'accurate enough' or attractive to most people, i still see it as a really good piece of art because the artist has put themselves into it. practice also helps too. i know so many people who say they can't draw when they can! everyone can draw. people just choose to base how good it is on detail instead of the impression the drawing makes on them. well thats how i think/see it anyway :p i agree Pascale too. also, you are not a selfish bitch at all, its better to vent your feelings on here and get them off your chest rather than keep them all squashed up in your head :) its normal to feel jealous, its just typical human-ness, don't worry. have a go at painting or something, broaden your skills in art, catch every opportunity. you do have a purpose, to be who you are and make your own way through this world, lol that sounds so weird but i hope things get better for you, i bet they will!

[Emily]

Idk how to help, but I understand what that feels like. And from my expierience, it sucks :P

[ashlee]

LOL i feel that way in art class...i think im good at drawing until i go to art class and theres like a group of girls who always draw anime and theyre good at drawing people too... jflkegwjklewgjlthjj

[roxanne]

Everyone wants to be special.  We are because of our uniqueness, just like Pascale said.  You may not be the best at this detail or that, but you are the very best at being you.  And, having said that, you may be better anyway.  Art is so subjective.  And I love your name.

[Sunshine]

Thankyou very much for saying that. Reading that makes me feel better. It also made me feel kinda bad about what i said. Every thing you said Pascale was right. I needed someone to say that. Thxz

[Pascale]

You are not losing your talent if your friend have it too. If you are not drawing what you can draw nobody will. Think at it. You are unique and what you draw will allway be unique. Life is not about beeing best, its about beeing yourself. Good luck