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I Overdid This

Started this discussion. Last reply by Silver Swan on Saturday. 4 Replies

As a grown adult at 33, I fully understand the truth of my life, compared to my teens. In my youth, I was immature and didn't get out. I was no social butterfly and struggled to maintain a circle of…Continue

Looking through eyes of another

Started Nov 3 0 Replies

Doing MDD for years, I didn't quite understand as to why people overreacted on me so strongly, as if I committed a crime. I guess not everyone has the patience to learn and understand how MDD'ers…Continue

People can see me MD

Started this discussion. Last reply by Ulaan Gom Jul 31. 1 Reply

Just when I think I'm coming out of MD, there are other signs that are still apparent. The other night, my family was watching TV and my sister noticed that I had a horrified expression on my face. I…Continue

Talking to my imagination

Started this discussion. Last reply by MDphonehome May 14. 1 Reply

This is so embarrassing, I was in the bathroom and my mom was calling me. As I shouted back and opened the door, I heard her words, "Are you talking to yourself or are you listing to me? I saw my…Continue

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mira liked Silver Swan's discussion I Overdid This
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Silver Swan replied to Silver Swan's discussion I Overdid This
"Actually, I had to quit. It got out of control and I was unable to conceal it. Everybody was talking and I looked very bad. I grew up in a small town, not the city. I went to school in my own neighborhood, so people knew about me right where my…"
Saturday
Dnivog97 replied to Silver Swan's discussion I Overdid This
"I am trying to change things, after reading your post, I have got the motivation to go the extra step and actually do something about this Life sucking disease. I just hope I can get out of it., also, have you tried Inner engineering by Sadhguru? I…"
Nov 14
Silver Swan and Dnivog97 are now friends
Nov 13
Silver Swan replied to Silver Swan's discussion I Overdid This
"Yeah, nothing has changed for me after 20 years of doing this. In fact, MDD put me into the same lousy life cycle since it began. If I hadn't been daydreaming I probably would've been OK. I am so mad at myself right now, and very pained…"
Nov 13
Dnivog97 liked Silver Swan's discussion Looking through eyes of another
Nov 12
Dnivog97 replied to Silver Swan's discussion I Overdid This
"Fuck! I am 22  and this hit me like a rock. Everything you described is exactly what I am going through and thinking Life will be great and just daydreaming all the time. I don't know how to stop. I'm all over the place and what…"
Nov 12
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I Overdid This

As a grown adult at 33, I fully understand the truth of my life, compared to my teens. In my youth, I was immature and didn't get out. I was no social butterfly and struggled to maintain a circle of friends. I felt as though I was missing traits, such as good verbal skills and the ability to interact in a crowd. I got mercilessly bullied at school and had no clue who I was as an individual. Everything in high school was very FAKE, and I tried to mimic others who were self-assured and actually…See More
Nov 9
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Looking through eyes of another

Doing MDD for years, I didn't quite understand as to why people overreacted on me so strongly, as if I committed a crime. I guess not everyone has the patience to learn and understand how MDD'ers face their life walking in a fantasy realm a few hours a day—why should they? They don't have the problem. So of course they're going to give dirty expressions and yell their heads of at you, as loud as they can. They will only assume what your doing, and be crossed that you can behave in such a way.…See More
Nov 3
Silver Swan replied to mira's discussion I did it i am cured nd u can too!!!
"It all started with an important job. I was a lead designer for a corporation that made cleaning chemicals for electronics. It was my first big role after College. I didn't want to screw up. At the interview, I was really out of it, due to…"
Oct 26
Silver Swan replied to Aj's discussion Sad That It's Not Real
"If you want to live a better reality, you'll have to get through the pain of leaving your characters. When I first stopped doing Maladaptive Daydreaming, I also felt despair for leaving a world I used to know. It used to make me feel happy,…"
Oct 13
Daisy replied to Silver Swan's discussion A heartening lesson
"I also wasted many many years in a haze of non-reality. It got to the point where I consciously chose not to pursue real dreams and goals because 'i could experience it better in my own head'. Learning to cultivate, pursue and make…"
Oct 9
Silver Swan replied to Andrew Sharp's discussion Uni student who desperately needs help
"My sister tends to complain that I'm staring at her, because I eat right beside her, but then I start thinking so much, so my eyes move all around the room, and then I accidentally glare at my sister. She gets so offended and thinks I'm…"
Sep 29

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Seeking more tangible things

Posted on August 16, 2018 at 11:07am 0 Comments

I literally spent nearly 20 years day dreaming about needing a boyfriend, but just today, I feel that was a scary thing to do.

I don't know many people who've done this! They basically just payed attention to others and got the partner they wanted, in a super outgoing manner. I wonder if maybe I blocked myself from people too much by diving into MDD. I was never attracted to many real people throughout my life, as they weren't as favorable as my MDD characters. So, I wondered…

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Expressing yourself is everything

Posted on August 13, 2018 at 12:17pm 0 Comments

Everybody use to gossip about me and taunt me in school for a simple reason: I didn't talk at all. I was your shy awkward type who didn't ever fit in. I had a couple friends at a time, but not too many. Everybody else was extremely chatty, super outgoing and extrovert—"and neurotypical." I was the only student that had autism spectrum disorder, so I was challenged with communicating and interacting. So my school and college job experiences were rather traumatic. Even into my…

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I discuss my life situations, but only in my MDD

Posted on July 23, 2018 at 9:02am 0 Comments

Whenever I want to express how I feel about my life situations, I discuss them with imaginary friends, because they actually listen to me without getting snarky. I find that real people don't understand my form of language or they're like "Then, do something something about it." Actually, real people wonder why I've gotten into that situation in the first place, or they can clearly see what's evident, snip at me what's going to happen and what I better do in future. It's as if in…

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It shows

Posted on July 19, 2018 at 8:07am 0 Comments

I don't know how you guys do it! I try everything to conceal my day dreaming. I will put on startled, worried, wary or perplexed expressions to hide it. I'll even move my eyes around and bite my lips. People will still look right at my eyes and maybe even into them! I guess, they still wonder what goes on in my head. If I make a slip up at home and even work, people will think, 'is she wondering?'

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At 3:47pm on December 7, 2018, Fitri Kamelia said…
Just a quick message to say we have started up a new forum on daydreaming. As its a new forum there isn't much content yet but we hope with your input it will grow. It is still a work in progress so any suggestions or offers to moderate would be greatly appreciated. We would really like it if you could join us and share your MD journey with us or even just come along to talk in the chatroom and make a few new friends. We hope to see you there x http://daydreaminblue.freeforums.net/" tabindex="0">Hello Everyone,

Just a quick message to say we have started up a new forum on daydreaming. As its a new forum there isn't much content yet but we hope with your input it will grow. It is still a work in progress so any suggestions or offers to moderate would be greatly appreciated. We would really like it if you could join us and share your MD journey with us or even just come along to talk in the chatroom and make a few new friends. We hope to see you there x

http://daydreaminblue.freeforums.net/

 
 
 

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