I finally realized that my MD is about being a hero and rescuing others in their time of need. But my MD wasn't the cause of it, it was a reflection. In my daydreams, I rescued the one I admired from her boyfriend who broke her heart. In reality, I lived through her problems and was constantly worried about trying to 'fix' her and be her hero like I did in my dreams. I now discovered that I have Co-dependency. In my dreams I COULD be a hero, and be admired for it and be shown gratitude. But…

Be careful what you think, for your thoughts become your words.

Be careful what you say, for your words become your actions.

Be careful what you do, for your actions become your habits.

Be careful what becomes habitual, for your habits become your destiny.

 Thanks to EludeMyFantasies, I have finally realized what I've been searching for. MD is a choice just like any other habit. It's just a very thick mist…

 When I was in 8th grade, I had a dream that I wanted to write a book about an adventure that really happened to me. I wanted to awe people and make them say "Wow! This was real? I thought it was fiction!"  So in order to do that, I chose people from the real world (my classmates) and started to plan my story and how it would go. I truly believed it was going to somehow come true. I dreamed of my buddies (my classmates who I never even talked to) and I were going to join up as a group when I…

 When I had my biggest episode of MD for a year and a half, I sunk so deep in it that I actually started to believe it was going to come true. I thought I was crazy.