Okay so just now I was reading a fanfiction and it really got me wanting to dd a similar scenario to what was happening, like a really intense one and after a bit I randomly got up and went just out the door, a few steps down the hall then wondered what I was doing. I came back, sat down and realised this scenario was intense enough I just really, really needed to pace (or just walk somewhere really briskly). Not around my room, it's not big enough. But hey, Mum's in the living room…

Okay, so. Short story time. The more important part is bolded, if you can't be bothered reading it all.

I did a course in organics which finished back in July. Next year in February I'm going to be studying Agriculture.

I have spent the past four months doing nothing "productive" (aka, I've been earning no money nor received any formal education.)

Recently (and I don't know how it happened, it just did.) I've improved my sleeping pattern and been getting enough / close…

You know, I have said many times before that even if I could be in my DD world for real, I wouldn't because Ideal Me goes through to much pain and I couldn't handle that.

But I've realised a few things.

One: Usually when I say no, I'm thinking of the main part of my DDs, which is pretty negative (though there are high points and 'meh' points)

Two: There's also my 'future' DD (okay, both are set in the future but the first is only a few years away, the second maybe 15…