Maladaptive Daydreaming: where wild minds come to rest
Okaay so a while back I started painting again (I hadn't painted for about a year before that 'cause I painted only for art then didn't do art) and so I'm part way through my fourth picture (though I had to start again 'cause I screwed up badly from the beginning) and I did notice, even in year 11, (the last year I did art) that I didn't really fantasize while painting, only regular thinking, and maybe a bit of talking-in-my-head to a character* and today, I got up late and spent a total of about 5 or 6 hours painting and basically the rest of the time I was up was on Tumblr, and I can't really DD while on there so, except laying in bed this morning, and my long shower, I've not daydreamed all day.
I think this is a bloody record for me, at least since I discovered this... Probably about 14 months ago.
Now it's 10pm and my sleeping pattern is screwed, and though I doubt I'll see any replies to this until tomorrow (or Sunday, seeing as I'm going to a friends' early tomorrow for the night) but I can't decide whether the next hour or two I'll be awake, I should paint ('cause there's a bit I kind of want to do now, but I've almost had enough) or go to bed and finally daydream.
Actually, my brain feels kind of tired, like I've been around people all day. And if I've been around people all day, I won't have been daydreaming, so maybe it keeps my brain working and I just gotta not do it too much or something hell I don't know. But I don't actually miss my fantasy world and the characters, I just sort of feel I need a break from real life or something.
This is actually an amazing revelation for me. If I can go 8 hours without daydreaming (dinner with Mum/John(the guy renting a room), painting and Tumblr) then I should be able to go without for at least an hour or two to do homework, shouldn't I?
Which means maybe I can control it better than I thought.
Maybe I can control it.
Maybe I should try to analyze my fantasizing a bit more, and try and get (at least some) of the level of concentration I have for my paintings into my assignments.
*ps, does anyone else feel kind of bad for calling them characters? I mean, they're friends to me, not just a character.
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Very interesting. I noticed that I too, when doing a task that I particularly enjoy that involves creativity, then the daydreaming is at a minimum. Very interesting breakthrough and I will have to look into this deeper. Thanks for sharing!!
sounds like you made some good progress.
Well...
Some people -like me- don't have Imaginary friends in our MDD's.
Instead we create movies and stories inside our heads. So I guess that's why we call them characters.
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