OMG there was an attempted terrorist attack at the Christmas tree lighting a block from my apt. SO SCARY. I didn’t go because of the crowds, but still. I’m shaking. I feel so vulnerable all the time. It’s worse because I’m such a loner that I’m certain my cats would starve to death if anything happened to me. No one would know until it’s too late. I wish there was something I could do. Some way to ensure they’d be taken care of. I don’t free feed them because so many vets…

Seeds of fear:…

I’m trying to remember if there was ever a moment in my life where I wasn’t completely paralyzed by the fear that my whole world was about to come crashing down on me. It’s so bad. I start the day by fearing all I have to do & knowing I’ll never catch up. I fear the phone. I check my email, afraid of what may be inside. I’m afraid that someone’s going to email me angry, judging me for my attitude, telling me they won’t help me. I fear the phone because I know it’s bill…